Powerful Testimony! Jason Upton is who he is today because of his mum prayer..
God will never forsake you once you belong to HIM Check out his worship!
This song is a reminder to surrender everything to God for HE know better and have the best plan.
We need to come back to the heart of God about true compassion for people. I have seen fair amount of leaders and people in my church displaying what it means to be truly compassionate; it is only by being in tune to God's heart for HIS people. (for example, leaders or people crying for Japan earthquake victim and other under privileged people)
For me, many of time, i am ashamed of myself for allowing barriers and judgmental attitude to come in my heart. Thankfully, it is a battle only God can win, it won't work by me working hard or fighting the barriers or attitude. It is a battle that is bound to lose by human efforts and only by allowing God in, transformation can be done.
Shall continue blogging about my long distance relationship with aaron tam =)
Do bear with my sudden flow of updates haha
I won't make this long..
The formula is foundation in God Lots of communication trust and of course commitment to not give up no matter how tough it is
I am thankful to our lead pastor in church , telling us that we should discuss the best way to communicate for us, what work the best for each of us and etc.. it is essential in maintaining a long distance relationship
I thank God that HE sustain us through it, and most importantly, HE is the ONE that is writing our story since the beginning. HE planted the seed of flower and let it blossom. Aaron and me are best friends that know each other for some time before we are in a relationship, which is crucial as this give us time to know each other well before the decision to commit. most importantly, we know the flaws yet see God in it.. i have to admit we bring along emotional baggages and differences into our relationship but God is the central and reason we stay on.
I am hoping our relationship will glorify the Lord and bring testimony. I hope that we can mirror God's love and faithfulness to others as flawed as we are. There is certainly more learning to come.
Yes,it's been ages i blog The reason i am back is purely the leading of inspiration to write or share..
so here we go...
what inspire u? or rather who inspire u?
Will it be songs? will it be some celebrities? or will it be your friends? or will it be your partner? or will it be your parents, or older people?
What bring joy and satisfaction into your heart? (i am talking about those moments of joy that u wish it will stop right there-not just normal happiness)
For me, inspiration comes with good conversation, God-lead sermons, worships and moments when your heart is still and fresh to listen to the soft nudging of God. Those moments make me wish that i am in heaven badly (not a suicidal thought but the feeling to belong in a place where everything is perfect, joyful and beautiful)
It wouldn't be fair to leave out inspiration from my parent. Though the realization may be slightly late (better than never), my parent is a part of who i am. I am definitely proud of how hard they worked and provide for us in all way. I also know there is improvement needed in our communication just as all the other relationships needed. For we do not know how to love perfectly and only God does. Our love does not sustain, but God does.
Of course, God is the biggest inspiration in my life. I am inspired by God and i pray that i am alwiz in tune to Him.
One thing for us, new experience or things always bring temporary happiness to us and it's true to me. we are somehow build to anticipate new and adventures in life. Routine may kill our soul slowly, but having say that, adventures alone is not the solution to a life with joy. I have come to learn that no travelling or experp iences truly bring joy and rest to me. And the best part is, joy comes with commitment and sometimes pain. Let see what i meant.. Joy is not feeling, it is a commitment to walk with God and trusting Him to make it through. Well, life ain't rosy all the time. Joy comes with suffering and the unending wait for a glimpse of victory. Let see if i can illustrate this with a personal example :
I admit i am spoilt and impatient, period. Let just say i have tendency to shun or run away when things get hard, unwilling to face it. I were forced to withdraw from my previous Uni due to my own failure and after that, things get downwards. It was the time to search and identify my future and boy it was not easy. I lack the maturity and strength to shield myself from the stress of a call center job, therefore i run. then i got started with some stuff and run. Then God begin to slowly teach me how to endure and wait upon Him for my future. on my last employment, i did not like it and there wasn't any future in this job, and i were desperate to be continue my study. If it wasn't for the reminder that i needed to finish this season and wait upon God, i would have run AGAIN. The season finish with a sweet victory. one saturday after church (i prayed again for an answer regarding my study), my dad came to fetch me (it's not often he have time to do so) and out of no where he talked to me about my degree and where do i want to continue it. i have been checking alot of options without my parent knowing and i feel at peace with UCTI, so of course i mentioned UCTI. It is an answer to my long awaited prayer when dad agreed to enroll me in the UNI and mum agree to it too.. Can u imagine how victorious my heart feel at that time? It is really a time where God is teaching and shaping my personality.. To know the joy of waiting and trusting HIM. It is also time to rely on God more as the beloved BF is studying in overseas at that particular time. (ps, and we survived the long distance ordeal which i will blog another time)
