my baptism

testimony time..

preparing..

yay, I am in the water...

up (alive)

since last year the baptism question were posted to me.. and since I am new to the church and all, i consulted my elder, uncle hock seng along with aaron tam.. Uncle Hock Seng patiently lead us to understand more.. I am shown by God how this church function as a family, supporting each other after I went back home from consulting.. most importantly, when i ask God should I get baptize, HE didin't answer me yes or no, instead, HE said, HE can't make decision that i am suppose to make for HIM..that time, I know I am not ready yet..and i remembered the time is Christmas time..

and time flies, and it's flying to easter (alot have happened in between,and God is faithful).. again mr kenny posted me this baptism question... then, one fine day, I am very lazy to go cf prayer meet, but thr is this prompting that i am to attend it. God presence is thr as usual whr we seek HIM corporately, and I must say its my desire to pray out of HIS heart.. then again, when mr ken, drove me to one u for my shuttle van,he ask me for my baptism confirmation.. after I catch my shuttle van, I am reminded that the decision can only be made by myself, and looking back, I know how much love God have showered to me..then, this scene came to me, a man have long prepared to propose a gurl..he is ready with ring, flowers, make the restaurant reservation, but he have to woo and court the gurl first before he can do the proposal.. most importantly, the gurl have to either say yes or no to his proposal.. now i understand y God bring me to this scene, to show that baptism is a marriage and it means commitment for a marriage..HE adi have the proposal long ago for me, but HE is patiently waiting for me to say yes to HIM..to say yes to declare HE is my Bridegroom and to belong to my church family.. by then, my heart is clear of what to do, I say yes..and the joy came..

after my decision, baptism class started and then explanation by elder, Uncle Chris (called interview..lol, but it's quite informal and uncle chris joke somemore)

and on the big day, the easter day (can't sleep the night before, too excited hahah).. i noe God is with me all the way, especially in the freezing water,lol..yeap, I do I do.. God glory is shown on that day..HIS victory is bursting with joy.. we celebrate! i just can't seem to thx God enough to bring me to this church whr the elders is all sensitive to HIS spirit.. God have use this church to bring me breakthrough.. even on that day, after our guest speaker finish, God wan to have more victory, HE pour down HIS healing, deliverance and annointing.. ppl just cry, kneel, Words of live is given, apostle and prophetic annointing were given.. amazing.. I just stand thr and let my tears flow as God break me from generation curse..another breakthrough..

from sue en's blog

http://su-en13.blogspot.com/2008/02/woman.html

read this post from my church mate blog, she is talking about this japanese series, 1 litre of tears.. and its really nice.. especially the part of the movie, whr the mum said, above all, I am a mother.. for me, it means no matter wat, she will be fullfiling her duty as a mother.. for me, it just like God's faithfulness.. hw beautiful.. hw strong is a mother love..hw much greater is God faithfulness for us..

i just want to add to the crying part, yes, go ahead and cry, it does not ake u seem weak or nt in control, it means u have the courage to release it through tears and it is beautiful to be vulnerable to God.. trust me, all the tears is precious to God..beside, breakthrough come with tears.. after u cry, i m sure u noe u r lighther.. after crying, u will be able to stand again.. plz don't give up by bottled up ur emotion.. and oh yes, i do need alot of crying to b who I am today, and more to come, but I am nt worried, because like child birth, the pain of crying is just temporarily and when u see the 'child' (the victory) after u 'push' (release), u will remember the joy..
so even for guys, have a good cry when u need it.. find a place whr u can have all the space and piracy u need to have the 'child'.. And most importanly, be honest, if u are angry, make aware of the feeling, tell God and HE won't mind ur language, HE is big enough for ur bashing.. seriously, this is important, because, in order to solve problem, u need to be honest, yes, u need to honor and praise God, but when u dun feel that way, tell HIM frankly no matter how disrespecting u may sound..


p.s read her post and enjoy..

cf outing

ok, on thurs (public hols), cf organize a outing to 'park'..me and michelle goh didn't know it was a forest park, so we wore wedges..swt..i heard its just picnic.. anway, i should have guess and wear shoe instead of wedges..sigh..so, i end up finishing a short jungle tracking with wedges.. hahahaha.......and didn't tripped.. great achievement alrite.. miss angeline, mr kenny, kevin and yoke kheng were so impressed..lol.. say i perseverance and etc..lol.. it was fun and i luv the fresh air of forest.. cool plants and all, can't afford to miss it.. will post pics soon..lol..oh, btw, michelle chicken out..lol..she hide to paul condo..which is walkng distance to the park..