Wednesday, October 19, 2005

my blur case

let me tell u wat is the condition of my blur case...i went out wit my best fren n her frens to midvalley for a movie. Everything was so great! after movie n lunch we walk around(duh,it MEGA SALES!! GRILS, U NOE WAT TO DO!) After all the window shopping n around 5.40pm, we decided to call it a day. my best fren mum haven't come to pick her up so i wait for her whereas others go back to their houses. after her mum came, i went back using ktm train alone...i was quite sleepy at dat time n i just listen rougly to the anouncer. After a station name batam (i think) my best fren called me n ask whether i m back home anot.which i answer no,i told her dat i get on tis train quite long d n the train just pass station batam...she have only one sentence which is u got on the wrong train...tis is the last thing u wanna hear, trust me! i doubt the words at first n i keep asking is she serious a not...untill i get to another station which is Nilai only i realized her words is true n i was still on phone wit her...i quickly get down the train as she told me n cross the bridge to wait for the right train! i feel like a loser wen i get down n wait there! i started thinking m i so blur n stupid or silly?? i pray so hard for God guidance n helping hands! my fren have to comfort me n guide me so dat i dun repeat again this mistake! After waiting awhile finally the train came...i keep on checking the station wit my best fren n looking at the route map!i dun wan the second time n its getting late at nite! after spending around 3 hours in the train, i finally get to ktm kepong...whew! after dat i took a cab n off i m back to my house! safe n sound! thank God so much!!praise God! thank God for His mercy n grace! once again He is my Saviour!amen! Amazing grace!

my writing about life....

Wow, this is about our life!!! Some of you might ask what is the big deal about our life??? If you ask that you are so wrong! There are a lot of philosophies and issues in our life!!! It is big deal dear people, trust me! Well, of course I’m not going to write about philosophy as I am not a philosopher! Whew, what a relief for you guys! Ha-ha! But (oh no! I know what you guys are thinking! I know a bit of mind reading! Just kidding!) I will write about issues in life that are quite important. Bear with me for this exclusive life journey! You might not agree with me in this walk of life but don’t worry, I won’t force you to accept all my opinions, ways and styles! I know you guys have your own great opinions…use your critical thinking power while reading my book and feel free to disagree or criticize! One concept that I learned is when people criticize you, (duh, of course you feel angry! How dare he/she comment you like that is the line running through your head) what you should do is to try to get over the anger emotion and analyze what he/she said (s what he/she said true? what is it that I should change?), then you decide whether to change yourself. Comment or critics from people are important to let us be aware of how we portray ourselves in people’s eyes and obtain useful advice to let us grow in becoming a better person. Of course there are situations where you don’t have to care about how people think of you! If you are nervous about how people see you, you tend to be acting or fake around them which is not good because you can’t be yourself and you are sure enough let people see that you are not comfortable there! Hmm, how to prevent this from happening is to be confident (how to be confident? Keep in your mind that you are special and useful in your own unique way! Praise God for that! In God eyes, everyone is a grace to Him!), don’t wear too outstanding clothes (my own opinion & experience) and know that everyone is not perfect, dun worry about your flaw too much (of course it will be best if you try to make your strength overshadow your weakness) because everybody has! Just act natural and cool about it! Dun sweat about it! What to write some more? Click, searching for brain neurons…what!!! Error, no brain neurons detected! Impossible! I wouldn’t be living if my brain neurons die, I would either be heaven or hell (hope it is heaven! Arhh, don’t want to crack my head about it and by the way, it is in God hand!) It true, research show it! Go log on internet and check for yourself! Don’t be lazy! I mean myself! Opps, reveal my weakness! Hehe!) The word ‘impossible’, wouldn’t it be great if we turn it to ‘I am possible’! Done research already about the brain neurons? Don’t tell me you don’t know what is internet? If you don’t, you better don’t life in this era… just joking! Don’t go and try to kill yourself because I shan’t be responsible towards your life! Talk about putting responsible upon life, I found out that nowadays people tend to commit suicide when they face problems that I personally feel can be solve with some guidance. Trust me; there is no problem big enough worth to die for! Why modern or civilized act so uncivilized? Like people from thousand ages ago who don’t know how precious is a life. Guidance is needed in this case. Anyone else intend to become a counselor? With the stress of job, money or other kind of pressure mankind are facing, this job promise a good fortune and future! Since when did I recommend people job? A minute ago I guess? One thing is your life is given by God (in Malaysia, there are many religion, so suit yourself!) and you have no right or privilege to take your life like that! I take it as a selfish act for people who commit suicide! It is true that everything end when they die but it is a different stories for their loved one especially their family, relatives and friends. Their loved one has to bare the memory and sadness until the end of their life! I know it is harsh to say but isn’t it is an act of cruel? Well, I left it for you to think and analyze it. Think about it, how many unlucky people in world are suffering from all kind of various diseases struggle to breath for one day, a few hours, 1 hour or even 1 minute! What did they do to deserve it? Some are just small kids! Only God know because He plans everything with hidden meaning (Uh oh, God is secretive aren’t He? Dun worry, the truth will be revealed one day! He is merciful and graceful towards us because He send His only son Jesus to die for us!) If you think your life sucks and you want to end it right now, wake up! Go check around the world and you will find out that there are many needy people in this world that waiting for miracle so that they can live. You will totally swimming in your own tears when you see them. Try being a social worker, you will be give thanks that you are able to live, you will be much happier and definitely cherish or perish the time in your entire life! Helping people give you a sense of fullness and happiness because you are able to help them. I don’t think there are many people willing to become social worker as there are plenty things for us to do in life such as homework assignment, preparing exam if you are student and if you are working, your working day already take up half of your day. With so many things for us to accomplish, we might feel stress if we couldn’t accomplish what we plan to. This is where stress management is important. Many class or books about stress management have been here to reach out for people who need it. If you don’t know how to manage stress, you might end up in mental hospital (I won’t want to visit you because I am scared! Joking!) Maybe for some people shouting or throwing tantrum towards people (that not the way to get out emotion and you just hurt people feelings, I used to be like that as my emotion is unstable) my suggestion is exercising or anything that get the sweat out of your body (this work for me at least), you can also shout it loud at a place where no human beings are detected. Why not talk to your intimate or trustable adult or counselor. One point here, when you are in the middle of heat or fire, quickly runs away because you don’t want people to get fire burn, I mean hurt anybody. You must also blurt what make you angry because if you don’t, one day the volcano will explode (seriously!) you will certainly break down and become insane(oh no) if you don’t know how to mange stress! Actually there is a scientific name for this stress disease (go back home and look for medical dictionary! hehe!)

In this new generation, humankind needs to work or study extra hard to survive! You have to be better than others in order to crab a place in work or study. There are so called stratagems involve especially in workplace. It isn’t just about work but relationship or the bond between people (sigh that the hard part and it is what make people stress! That why there are a lot of books or talks about how to manage human relationships in work) Why oh why it is so hard to deal with human? I guess it is because everyone wants to become successful in life and this make them put on a mask while they are in work place, never use their heart while dealing with people. Another thing is each one of us has different personality as we are brought up by different way, culture, value and religion. (Well, that what make the world “colorful”, isn’t it?)

I remember one Chinese quote that say it is good that we can speak human language when we deal with human and speak ghost language while we deal with ghost; but it is best if we speak ghost language while dealing with human beings yet they still can understand what we say and speak human language while dealing with ghost yet they still can understand us! This for sure isn’t easy to be done! Practice make perfect! Sounds familiar? It true! Anything that we do, preparation and practice make us more confident as we know well what to do because we already get use to it! I hope I will remain silent to my words!! Ha-ha! Because alot of time i didn follow my own words!

Oh yea, you guys heard the phrase an eye for an eye and an apple for an apple? Do you guys agree with it? I will not force you guys to view the same as I do but I am just merely giving my point. Of course you repay a kindness with kindness. When it comes to evil it is a different thing, normally people will take revenge. Bible (seriously, it is not as boring as you think, trust me!) did say that an eye for an eye but it doesn’t need to be done like that! Why can’t we overcome evil with good and leave all the injustice in God’s hands? I know you might think that it is stupid to do that but one thing is hating a people will not make you any good but only fill your heart with hatred. Furthermore, you will feel angry, unhappy, sad and more negative emotion. This is bad because why you want to punish yourself with other people sin? You are putting the burden onto your shoulder, doesn’t u think so? I know that it hurt a lot to bear when people done evil on you but you have to understand that human aren’t perfect and they are living in darkness! What you can do is show them love and bear with them, it not easy to do and a lot of patience is needed. Don’t you feel lighter once you forgive those evil things that people do to you? The joy and happiness just back to you like that (whoosh, magic!) Talk about overcoming evil things, temptations and problems, you will have to overcome it everyday! It is just whether small problems or major breakdown in your life. Believe me; I deal with it almost everyday! One thing is you don’t feel shy to admit your weakness and that you will need guide from the right source (right source is very important because they will give you right advice, I get this words from one of my friend and don’t you think it is true?)

The right influence is important because as a human, we are easy to being influence by our surrounding. How to get right influence? I personally think that it is done by joining extra-curriculums in school, good affiliation, sports and of course religion places (these places will give peace to your soul and every religion promotes good values in life!) One thing about religion is if we are saved (I am using Christianity sample, I apologized if I have offend anybody), it is right that we should hate sin but we shouldn’t hate sinner but we should love them and support them! This is so true; judge yourself before you judge others! I admit that we always judge people especially by the first impression. We are always stereotyping people without any reason. I have to be frank that I may judge people unconsciously and I am changing myself. You know why we shouldn’t do that? This is because everyone is special or different and you might never know what you can learn from the people you judge! Think about the feelings when you are being judge, if you hate being judge then why should you judge? Do you feel happy if other people sad? Of course it is clear that we can humbly confront the people when we know that they are doing sin. It is our responsibility to carefully tell people especially when we know they are committing sin. There is a saying which is a gem cannot be polished without friction, nor a man perfected without adversity. There are a lot of hardship to go through before you truly grow up as a human (no one is perfect, I am being honest!). We are growing especially spiritually everyday through the things we gone through. There are a lot of these love thingy people like to know about, I have come across this saying by a writer. If you like a person but he/she doesn’t like you back, then he/she isn’t worthwhile for you to wait (I have this experience before, it is hard to forget but time will wash everything and let the feeling over by making yourself focusing on other things like studies, sports and others) Find a person who know how to appreciate, accept, love, care for you and endure you! In quest for searching love, you don’t have to lower your value or compromise your belief (this is a debate by many people because some believe that they should change themselves to get love and some believe they shouldn’t, what you guys think?) don’t waste your time waiting for a person who doesn’t worth it, go on with your life and search for people who will understand you and remain your friends no matter up or downs. God is a suitable person for this friend that we need, He will be beside you until the very last breath of yours and He is forever faithful!

All bout U,God!

My fren wrote it n i think it is good,dat why i publish and share it! enjoy....

When you are facing your greatest fear and despair,
When you feel that your heart has been broken to pieces,
When you are walking on life's darkest highway
Remember that the Lord has not deserted you,
Like the way He overcome Satan in His time of trial and temptation,
He will give you the strength and wisdom too...
Remember.....You are of God......

Cheers! Praise God! Thx God for wat U have done to us!