updates

its jan and all..i m mostly at home being a "house guard" and i get paid haha... anyway, i decided to withdraw from commitee in CF.. i also found out how attach i m to CF.. but my season is up thr.. well, if no sucessor for my position, i will have to wait and see when God will send.. training for the subcommitee will start soon and i hope sucessors can come out from thr.. its a joy that some of the newer commitee in CF are having a blast, even in commitee meet(whr we normally veri formal and quiet) now, they all so hyper and comfortable throwing ideas and jokes that even miss angeline is entertain haha.. well, can't wait for easter, canp and etc..

when i decided to step down from commitee in CF, i keep wondering what will happen after that with my college life and all.. that make all the memory i have thr come up.. hw i m aware so many memories were created thr, whether it is fellwoship, pain from the conflict and fight.. all the jokes too.. its all far too valuable to me.. i also wonder how is God going to continue the connection HE gave to us (u noe who u guys r).. HE keep assuring me that connection that HE gave wil not be broken like that, unless HE allows it.. i were also assured that HE will bring me better plans for this year even as i step down..a new vine, a diff season.. its exciting to noe that ur future is so secure in HIM, that HE holds ur future..one thing, even wen some of us step down, we will still help out and it will always remains as a part of process in our life.. for that, I am grateful...

LOVE...

I need love! i admit dat.. i longs to be deeply love.. i do fear of abandoment n loneliness.. but God always shower me His love wen i need it.. HE always c my desire n touch me with His tender love.. every time when i am lonely , HE will come to my rescue.. i just pray for more of HIS love .. HE is the man dat love me always without any doubt (n HE ask em nt to doubt HIS love) and HE adore n delight in me.. oh yes, I am a gurl of biiterness, loneliness, sorrow ad failure, but He choose to love me.. I just can't imagine it..I am in wonder of HIS love... HE woo me with ways that HE know i will be touch-such as revealing HIS love through books because i reads alot, stroking my hair, kissing me, dance with me and whisper to me my worth...wow, HE understand my love language and love me the way I want.. one thing, HE is willing to do that to all HIS children.. those that hunger for it..

december happening

yay, its dec.. a mont worth of celebrating.. first of all, its hols, exam finish.. seconf of all.. its Christmas!! for anyone interested, the KDU CF carolling pics are available...ask me for it! we CF are a bunch of posers, so that is more that 200 pics available haha.. n we have loads of fun.. the gals look fantastic n stunning with make up n hairdo plus red top n white skirt of pants.. the guys look dazzlingly handsome with all black formal attire n tie.. check out the pics.. Huge camp is next in my dec calender.. wow, God is moving at the camp.. will have a post regarding huge camp soon hopefully.. wait ya.. went for a vacation with my family in the Mines after dat.. have a restful time n find out dat mines is slowly closing..sad.. anyway, have a gud time with my family.. Christmas carnival is on my next list.. a combined churches carnival for the community.. it was amazing.. Hindu man proclaim dat Christmas is for Christ!Halleluyah.. we went thr at 8, decorating our game store n den ppl start flooding it around 10 n about 1pm we finish the game prizes, so close store..our church in charge in 3 game stall beside nail and painting store.. after game stall close, i continue to help in the free nail painting store.. haha, i nvr really put on nail enamel eventough i have at home, but thx goodness i manage to do it n have fun...most small little gurls hand are challenging to paint as the brush is bigger than their delicate nail, but i love doing it lol...

after Christmas carnival, ntg much, just have a small meet with anna they all to exchange Christmas presents.. the rest of the day stay at home with family.. great to spend time with family n rest..still waiting for the coming of risk game day... anyway,new year d, next on my list is to work till feb.. can't wait for feb wen college open.. miss kdu lol.. searching for work nw..
will blog more about huge n my church soon............