Yes,it's been ages i blog
The reason i am back is purely the leading of inspiration to write or share..
so here we go...
what inspire u? or rather who inspire u?
Will it be songs? will it be some celebrities? or will it be your friends? or will it be your partner? or will it be your parents, or older people?
What bring joy and satisfaction into your heart?
(i am talking about those moments of joy that u wish it will stop right there-not just normal happiness)
For me, inspiration comes with good conversation, God-lead sermons, worships and moments when your heart is still and fresh to listen to the soft nudging of God. Those moments make me wish that i am in heaven badly (not a suicidal thought but the feeling to belong in a place where everything is perfect, joyful and beautiful)
It wouldn't be fair to leave out inspiration from my parent. Though the realization may be slightly late (better than never), my parent is a part of who i am. I am definitely proud of how hard they worked and provide for us in all way. I also know there is improvement needed in our communication just as all the other relationships needed. For we do not know how to love perfectly and only God does. Our love does not sustain, but God does.
Of course, God is the biggest inspiration in my life. I am inspired by God and i pray that i am alwiz in tune to Him.
One thing for us, new experience or things always bring temporary happiness to us and it's true to me. we are somehow build to anticipate new and adventures in life. Routine may kill our soul slowly, but having say that, adventures alone is not the solution to a life with joy.
I have come to learn that no travelling or experp iences truly bring joy and rest to me. And the best part is, joy comes with commitment and sometimes pain. Let see what i meant..
Joy is not feeling, it is a commitment to walk with God and trusting Him to make it through.
Well, life ain't rosy all the time. Joy comes with suffering and the unending wait for a glimpse of victory. Let see if i can illustrate this with a personal example :
I admit i am spoilt and impatient, period. Let just say i have tendency to shun or run away when things get hard, unwilling to face it. I were forced to withdraw from my previous Uni due to my own failure and after that, things get downwards. It was the time to search and identify my future and boy it was not easy. I lack the maturity and strength to shield myself from the stress of a call center job, therefore i run. then i got started with some stuff and run. Then God begin to slowly teach me how to endure and wait upon Him for my future. on my last employment, i did not like it and there wasn't any future in this job, and i were desperate to be continue my study. If it wasn't for the reminder that i needed to finish this season and wait upon God, i would have run AGAIN. The season finish with a sweet victory. one saturday after church (i prayed again for an answer regarding my study), my dad came to fetch me (it's not often he have time to do so) and out of no where he talked to me about my degree and where do i want to continue it. i have been checking alot of options without my parent knowing and i feel at peace with UCTI, so of course i mentioned UCTI. It is an answer to my long awaited prayer when dad agreed to enroll me in the UNI and mum agree to it too.. Can u imagine how victorious my heart feel at that time? It is really a time where God is teaching and shaping my personality.. To know the joy of waiting and trusting HIM. It is also time to rely on God more as the beloved BF is studying in overseas at that particular time. (ps, and we survived the long distance ordeal which i will blog another time)
Check out this Jason Upton, I will wait
Lastly, God bless! Stay tuned to God!
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