beauty part 2 haha..

been thinking of it lately, ever since i blog, i have been thinking about beauty so much lately..

Beauty is to accept the imperfection within us and LOVING IT.. I have to admit this is tough one.. i for once is with alot of imperfection, or so i think.. being bombarded with comments like, oh, u look like malay, u so dark.. and mum wanting me to put powder and cutting my foods intake make me obsess about my complexion and weight, nt mentioning my height.. i am below 160.. thrfore i hated sun, and try hard to exercise and cutting foods.. i know some gals go the extreme miles of nt eating at all.. recently my paranoid situation over my skin started when i have to walk alot under the sun and for the sports carnival in kota damansara just finished last sat have reached it maximum.. and u dun wan to noe the exact details.. lol.. so this make me think, izzit worth it to be worried and do every single thing to ensure my 'beauty'..

The thing is, y izzit so important to gals to be beautiful.. and what is the true defination of beauty, since we are alwiz bombared with beauty by media.. since my paranoid situation, i have know and more aware of hw much I (perhaps other gals) are shaped by the perception of media.. not to forget we have the tendency to compete out of jealousy... its our nature desire to be beautiful, thrfore we compete and jealous with other gals, when u desire something, envy will come to ppl who think they dun have it..

so, bck to the question, y izzit so important to be beautiful? y nt cute or just simple? of course none wanna be ugly.. bt the question remain.. y we spend tons and tons of time to be beautiful or secretly wishing we are beautiful? or some just go and have plastic surgery like in nip and tuck.. the sad part is the gals did not gain true self confident even after plastic surgery.. and even models, they have problem with beauty as much as they denied it. i mean, whats with the exessive make up and regular meeting with plastic surgery (in janice modelling company).. and yet we believe dat is the standard of beautiful or hot or gorgeous.. trust me, even beautiful gals are insecure.. they still think, they can be more beautiful.. whreas in some situation, a beautiful lady is a bridge for her to connect with ppl, as ppl will naturally be astounded by her beauty and want to noe her, bt her personality is shy, so ppl bck out, and turn to a simple gal but with bubbling character..

at the end, my question remains, but the word someone once told me keep echoing to me, to be beautiful, u must realize u r beautiful deep down.. and while my paranoid come to a highest point, the source of Beauty came.. telling me dat i need nt worry bout my flesh, it will be alrite, and HE is the beauty, the source of our desire to be beautiful (beauty not in flesh but every aspect of us)

swing

i personally luv to swing.. i can't explain hw dear it is to me.. i have taken a love on swing since small.. the feeling to be push or pushing urself and den when the swing go high, ur heart soar with it.. with a certain fear when the swing fly high on sky, i learn the fact dat i luv adventure/freedom but thr tis fear to limit me from unleashing too far ahead.. encounters to be push and to trust the person who push me my safety is another lesson.. like the book girl on the

swing.. its a beautiful encounter with God, being a girl and on swing with God..

thr is this experience i wan to share, i call it "the swing encounter".. thr are a few time, where my Father will bring me in time of need to swing, and as he sit with me side by side, sometime pushing me.. normally bringing company, luv and comfort to me.. its a Father and daugther time.. dat y dat day, even as me and michelle g went to park nearby my hse, and thr is a swing, veri big and high, wen i swing on it, remind me of heaven.. i can hear my heartbeat and even in the height, something in me rested.. the sky is dark, bt something is shinning-it feels like heaven.. i cry, laugh and soar on the swing.. nt fearing to fall and the height.. i luv swing!