yeap...time really fly..faster than an airplane sometimes...without me realizing..i m turning 20 years old this year...and well, i feel old haha...believe me...but one thing, never in any year I look forward for the years to past and to let God unleashed His perfect plan in my life... Its the third year of me in the journey with God, and only one word I can utter, Wow.. and then start starring at the sky and become emo..lol..it just so many thoughts will come to me when I reflect this 3 year journey, and it have been amazing, with joy and tears of course.
Gratitude linger my thoughts, realizing how much i live on other people helps, support and fellowship..at times, how I wish I could be the one that offer helps and support...ah, the desire to grow up and capable come to me again, but this time, taken care by HIM..what can I say beside silently thanking them and trying to show enough gratitude to ppl who have stick by me all this time...my church who just came into the picture of my life have been supporting me like a family and how grateful am I for it.. the Bread (words of God), Water (Spirit) and fellwoship provided by the church has truly been a blessing...
sadly, people come, people leave..memories is the one stay forever...I learn to accept this and cherish the connection while I can...sry la..if u guys think my birthday thoughts are sad and serious, just as anna commended...haha..another gal which I cherish alot and leaving to overseas...yeap, the pain of loss will come soon after she leave, just like the time mun yee leave.. no, I am not starting to become a sad person even as I start to be aware that the world is a place of hurts but then I will look up n smile, for thr is a FORCE bigger than the hurts...i m also suprise by the FORCE, the way HE heal me in issue I never thought exist...the joy which is the strength from HIM...
as times alwiz allow changes to happen..i am starting to miss gud time that i have with ppl n begin to form memories, a sign of growing old as only ppl with handful of memory can do dat...honestly, i miss the time when me, aaron n dan is on holidays, coz we practically hang out the whole day bfore prayer meet n all... now, we r bz with our degree n all..rarely have time for us to hang out n talk (sometimes serious stuff like God, CF, ppl n life, sometimes just crap like games, anime n jokes, lol..fine, its not crap but guys talk)..the two fella is 2 bro in Christ dat i wouldnt trade with anything...i thx God for the friendship form between us, who say gurl n guy cannot have pure friendship? i m close to them, thx to CF, maybe thats keep us together as frens...another precious memory is the bedroom talk n time in anna house... I put the memory close to my heart, a time of bounding with girl..another deep desire of mine, which is to have a God given sisterhood..I at time also vividly remember the time spend with mun yee and joram...a time which will alwiz be a part of me no matter how long. I praise God that HE connect me with this sis in Christ, mun yee and knowing that we will stick together in life, for we have been through tears n joy together..haha, i can't forget the time when we cry together n even fight against each other, yet we made it up with God help...the memory is so fresh, like a still hot just printed paper by photocopy machine.. For joram loo, i thx u for teaching me n believing in me....
Realizing alot of things and continuing to do so..as my Prince continue to pour into my cup...I will drink and drink till I m full...more to come....till next time....
