Made to be Beautiful

I am constantly reminded by the many lies we actually believed and get drowned in especially on self perception  


If there is one thing i am passionate about is to not just convince myself to believe that God have created me to be beautiful (regardless of how i look, take joy in God beauty and be comfortable about who i am,) but ultimately to spread out this message that all are created beautifully in God image.. 


Part of the reason to do clothes business is also to bring upon beauty to other girls and see where God leads me in this ministry ..            
May God victory flow towards HIS princesses especially in this world full of conflicting views on what are considered to be beautiful, leaving most girls suffered from low self esteem, depression and more. It could also consist of striving to achieve the flawless standards of beauty and an obsession to fix yourselves with make up or enduring surgery.  


ps. i pray that one day the struggle to believe in the beauty that God have bestowed upon me will lessen, and i won't always have battle about my appearance.  =)

working = passion?

I hope that by the time i am suppose to work i am able to find out in depth about what Lord have in plan for me .. that i will be able to pursue passion in life with Gods' will and guidance.

Just wanna do a work that i will at least be enthusiastic and passionate in =)

well, we will see where this will lead eventhough i am kinda worried   

retail retail

i am not sure when it dawn to me (especially most ladies) that the world notices you when you start beautify your appearance.

Then you start to put more and more emphasis on your looks instead of characters as you realize this is how you gain attention or praise
(to be fair, who doesnt like to be seen as beautiful).
Sadly, sooner or later, you will find that it feels meaningless and empty.
you will just be obssessed with finding new ways to be more desirable on appearances
(buying more make ups and clothes for example) and you wont feel contempted with what you owns.      

it is not wrong to beautify yourself or playing dress up, but be careful to not let it control you

i admit i am always tempted to buy and buy in order to feel beautiful and satisfied.
it feels hollow or guilty instead of joy. Frustration follows
     
the problem is eventhough i promised not to buy again, because i rely on my own strength, the promise easily broken.
i will still walk in to shops and have thousands of excuses
(for eg the feeling of how much i like the dress is stronger than promise) to buy
or i will suddenly crave or 'need' for certain stuffs and followed by ravanderous search for it.
This often lead to furstration (in the process of finding) or ignoring ppl in order to buy the stuffs.      

Only Lord can mend this issue as HE gently remind me of what is my priorities and that I am made beautiful in HIM  

Retail therapy may not be sinful and even harmless but it will affect your relationship with God and finance.
It is like a little subtle way of robbing your focus on God.
Ask this, whenever you are upset or feels not good, instead of turning to God, you choose retail therapy, do you think it shows lack of trust to Him?
just like in a relationship, you choose to rely on other ppl or sources instead of confiding to each other.  
Same goes to other harmless little habits, such as overeating or forcing yourself to vommit or turning to movies for emotional release instead of God.  
I am also still in the process of putting God first and this requires denying myself.
I have to ask God to give me the courage to die to myself so that HE can live stronger in me.
I am not perfect, so i am still walking this journey, i may sometimes lose to my own sinful nature and temptation.
Temper may flared and so on, but i am at least assured that i can go back
(willingness and awareness of the need to repent)to God and seek help                


PS i still like to be beautiful and shop but after i wrote this as my reminder, it is getting better. =)

If only

O Father, if only love is so easily accessible
If only joy and peace are freely available like the air we breathe

if only life are more simple
if only there is manual available for life or mentor available 24/7
If only the craving, feelings and issues will not be so strong at the middle of night  
If only i were showed how to do things properly  
if only my heart will not be so easily intimidated and crushed
if only life weren't so tangled up with sins ..

If only i can easily trust in YOU to be there 24/7
If only i could die to myself and be alive in YOU
If only i know more about Your faithfulness and Love

Teach me beautiful Father at this time