i dedicate this post to thank all of my frens for blessing me tremendously on my birthday.. thanks for giving me the best surprise.. and all the presents.. its overwhelming.. and yes, mich ..u r capable of surprising me..thanks for the video and hiding anna for one week (n somemore can say gud dat she didnt come bck)n making me scream the whole staff room..lol.. n lying bout picking up the jelly cake.. n i luv the books u got me n a really long letter u wrote of ur wisdom hehe.. n sharing ur 'wisdom' on recession n helping each other to stop buying wen shopping lol..thx
oh, n anna,for surprising me with ur homecoming , definatly paying more to change ur air ticket date.. i appreciate dat gal.. n i definately dun depend on u for ur car laaaaaa.. lol.. nw dat u dun have anyway lol.. i shift to ur bro.. jk jk.. i luv u nt ur car laaa.. i m way better den dat.. of cos, thanks for ur effort to walk around with me to get me present (wen i don't feel like buying stuff haha)n the beautiful necklace
mun yee for dropping a word or two on the video mich made.. n calling me till 3 am her time.. =) n listening to my emo 21st speech lol.. n of coz, her earliest birthday present i got.. n more wen she come bck? lol.. can't wait for u to come bck..nyeh nyeh.. n fullfill all the plans we have..
aaron tam for keeping up wit my presents demanding session.. loads of hinting n obvious demand wat to get me.. lol. thanks for getting me all the things i wan.. n making a list somemore for me to tick lol.. n of cos.. thanks for all the other ppl who pay for wat i tick down..
my gg in church. for the cake, celebration of all oct babies.. n study bible as my present.. yoke kheng n the rest for the swenson dinner.. aunty chooi kuan for the nice bath liquid
miss angeline for devotional book.. =) n for paying at the wong kok for oct babies
karen for the cute cup.. jason and wan si for making my name on a bracelet..
Saturday, November 08, 2008
Monday, October 27, 2008
birthday post (thxgiving and emoness haha)
yup, my 21st birthday is coming soon in 2 days.. n i adi receive some presents.. thanks ppl! the rest of the presents i adi noe the content, yes, i do noe..haha.. and some human complain i will have alot celebration lol.. they r just jealous dat i m loved by lots, thr u go hahaha (smilling with pride).. (this is for chaco and dan sim) anyway, u noe wat, the greatest gifts i will get is mun yee coming bck soon d and michelle goh may go bali with my family and i may go phuket with her and her family.. and i missed anna .. the sleeping partner who go through shops and search for my present and wishing me so early in her blog.. and the 'best' part is, she won't b coming bck in christmas..
fiy, and my life is very interesting recently.. i can't begin to describe how interesting it can be..
warning, contains emo writing that may be hazardous to health.. read it if u don't mind. be careful
let me get this straight, i am afraid to get to 21st.. thinking about it make me emo.. i just wan to run away on my birthday to somewhr.. the question in my mind, is hw much have i accomplish? all my dreams and hope, did i take the risk to accomplish anything? when will i finally drive properly like an adult? am i matured or fit to be 21? i said i vow not to regret anything that happened because i learn from it.. so, did i ponder and learn enuff? i have so many dreams and hope, when will the time come for them to come true? of course i am glad to know that my identity is not based on my dreams and hope.. most importantly, do i know God enuff? this term or year, is very interesting, God have surfaced so many of my issue, and nw i am asking, wat is next? is thr more healing or am i suppose to wait on HIM? i guess both, and hw? esp when listening to beth moore, believing God, it challenge me so much.. it convict me last sun .. what do i fear most? even as praying, my eyes are red, that i used to belive that i am uncapable, failure.. and lonely... mayb nw i still hold dat lies.. dats y i wanna run away on my birthday and just go to beach or travel (i wan to travel but thr is no chance yet, alwiz think i can't take care of myself and of course finance) .. so many times, i try to prove myself to be trustworthy and respectable, but failed to fullfill by it.. and den, as bth moore say, the enemy confirm u by saying, c, u r not worthy and nt capable, u have failed.. btw, as PS. Serena encourage us, it just stirred me again, dat we must find around 3 days alone with God.. jason mae did it and finished the bible.. nw i m praying for a time with HIM..
p.s opps, this is a really emo post.. told u its hazardous and b careful lol..
and i found out, mich and chaco also ask the same question i do..lol.. guess we all are bund to the same social expectation and structure.. honestly, i hate it
clinging on to the HOPE that bring life to my heart again and again
fiy, and my life is very interesting recently.. i can't begin to describe how interesting it can be..
warning, contains emo writing that may be hazardous to health.. read it if u don't mind. be careful
let me get this straight, i am afraid to get to 21st.. thinking about it make me emo.. i just wan to run away on my birthday to somewhr.. the question in my mind, is hw much have i accomplish? all my dreams and hope, did i take the risk to accomplish anything? when will i finally drive properly like an adult? am i matured or fit to be 21? i said i vow not to regret anything that happened because i learn from it.. so, did i ponder and learn enuff? i have so many dreams and hope, when will the time come for them to come true? of course i am glad to know that my identity is not based on my dreams and hope.. most importantly, do i know God enuff? this term or year, is very interesting, God have surfaced so many of my issue, and nw i am asking, wat is next? is thr more healing or am i suppose to wait on HIM? i guess both, and hw? esp when listening to beth moore, believing God, it challenge me so much.. it convict me last sun .. what do i fear most? even as praying, my eyes are red, that i used to belive that i am uncapable, failure.. and lonely... mayb nw i still hold dat lies.. dats y i wanna run away on my birthday and just go to beach or travel (i wan to travel but thr is no chance yet, alwiz think i can't take care of myself and of course finance) .. so many times, i try to prove myself to be trustworthy and respectable, but failed to fullfill by it.. and den, as bth moore say, the enemy confirm u by saying, c, u r not worthy and nt capable, u have failed.. btw, as PS. Serena encourage us, it just stirred me again, dat we must find around 3 days alone with God.. jason mae did it and finished the bible.. nw i m praying for a time with HIM..
p.s opps, this is a really emo post.. told u its hazardous and b careful lol..
and i found out, mich and chaco also ask the same question i do..lol.. guess we all are bund to the same social expectation and structure.. honestly, i hate it
clinging on to the HOPE that bring life to my heart again and again
Friday, October 10, 2008
sex sells and the reality of globalisation
yup, sex sells.. that is what my tv and video culture lecturer said the first time he lectured us.. it just bang me so hard.. i m actually wondering did i choose the right course? and i know most of the hollywood movies, nwadays such as don't mess with Zohan, knocked up, good luck chuck, sex in the city, gossip girl.. yes, i do watch them (call me hypocyrite) but don't worry, i watch it in protection of my mind and fully understand the degrading part of it.. the extreme emptiness and nausea will fill me when watching this type of show.. please, sex is something personal and intimate, leave it to the bedroom only... don't need to show it on the screen, good enough internet and pirated stuff is full fo porn.. all these are blooming to a industry definately. its perverted and sad.. corrupting minds and sow seeds of lie into minds.. its like human r only created for the pleasure of sex a.k.a love machine.. come on, we r worth more den dat.. n the worse part is in movie, love happen so fast, like in a few days, n they will have sex, n tada, the new generation instant noodle type of love... aside from prostitution (ur bodies get money out of the service from it), this is another form of degrading.. oh and not forgetting, those girls in car magazine or some car show etc.. its ewwww, what are they posing thr, if u wanna buy or view car, y do u need a girl to stand thr n pose.. a machine to persuade u to buy the car.. or a package dat come together for the pleasure of eyes.. yea, such attraction of a pretty face n sexy body
in my personal opinion, sex is the highest intimacy with a person u can enjoy.. nw, let dat sink in, its a commitment too as intimacy required dat.. like love,it's not suppose to come easy. the word love and sex come with responsibility and commitment, emphasize once again.. (u can nod ur head and oooooo dats y xiying nvr get commited in it)
love love love.. u won't even wan me to start.. its just pathetic.. a loneliness get away.. all those bull shit (pardon my language) for eg, because u appear in my life, i am whole and satisfied, u r the cure to my loneliness.. plz la, it nvr work dat way.. i nvr ever find true wholeness and satisfaction in guys, they r nvr cure to my fallen and broken heart.. in fact, the more u crave for them to b the cure to ur lonelines, the more u need it, like u dig the hole n fall inside, digging more..n its harder to come out once u fall (hallujah, Jesus crucified to b the Hero to pull u out of dat pitt of love or sex addiction) ..so my principle, nvr ever get in a relationship out of loneliness and check if u r ready for it.. n one lesson from a big 'bro' , if u r happy single, den u r ready.. n certain touching can definately arrouse emotion (we are programmmed in our DNA to enjoy dat). finally like what jason mae journal mentioned, in his fren teaching.. it is good to out in alliance our emotion with God leading..we are emotion being and its beautiful but we must keep check of it..i may sound like 'preachng' but its my own experience of defeat to emotion and the continous victory of Jesus.. psst, even as i type this, i am weeping of my pitfall of emotion..along with the very lie i believe which is using my own strength to guard my vulnerable or insecure heart instead of trusting God to guard it(this is from debbie blog, an old fren from a few years back combined church camp.. i am like whoa, dat hit me literally, i did dat too as the realization come)
marriage nwadays is another issue, the dissatifaction out of it, divorce and abuse..the children who have to face the harsh effect of divorce, and the etc effect after they grow up..
and this fren, wrote "who can sit still watching as the world degrades everything that God gives to us. We degrade sex (into an industry), marriage (into a hindrance and legal leeway(sp?)), love (into something only people who visit whore houses are led to believe), bodies (into machines of forceful attraction) and so on. "
i totally agree and inspired by it..
globalisation is another issue dear to my heart.. it is one of my subject.. my lecturer let us watch a video regarding globalisation.. one video that stirred me up is the secret filming of companies such as GAP, NIKE, REABOK, MacDonald and more western corporations.. the workers of the corporations were mostly from cambodia and indonesia, so when film, the workers were interviewed and their lifestyle are documented.. its just sad when u know that the ethics for labour from the countries are not make known to them, they are free to be exploited as the government can't do anything about it, due to the system.. the labour work, 36 hours, standing and only receive minimum wages.. they barely survive.. and they get poorer by each day.. n the best part is, unisonly people like us belive thr is ntg much to be done, we can't are much about it because it is everywhere.. u have to learn to live with it.. i noe its ridiculous, but if God lead, i may go for mission, since God have planted seed of compassion into my heart for ppl who suffer unjustice.. so again u can't help but weep wen u c the condition esp if u wake up feeling like a 'princess' and nw u realise ppl wake up feeling unworthy, exhausted and hopeless, n wat a 'big' fren said come to me, we r very pampered generation..i noe i noe, i m melancholy lol..
just a ranting from me.. signing out ppl..
luv... xy
p.s visit http://jaesonma.com/2008/10/call-response.html
in my personal opinion, sex is the highest intimacy with a person u can enjoy.. nw, let dat sink in, its a commitment too as intimacy required dat.. like love,it's not suppose to come easy. the word love and sex come with responsibility and commitment, emphasize once again.. (u can nod ur head and oooooo dats y xiying nvr get commited in it)
love love love.. u won't even wan me to start.. its just pathetic.. a loneliness get away.. all those bull shit (pardon my language) for eg, because u appear in my life, i am whole and satisfied, u r the cure to my loneliness.. plz la, it nvr work dat way.. i nvr ever find true wholeness and satisfaction in guys, they r nvr cure to my fallen and broken heart.. in fact, the more u crave for them to b the cure to ur lonelines, the more u need it, like u dig the hole n fall inside, digging more..n its harder to come out once u fall (hallujah, Jesus crucified to b the Hero to pull u out of dat pitt of love or sex addiction) ..so my principle, nvr ever get in a relationship out of loneliness and check if u r ready for it.. n one lesson from a big 'bro' , if u r happy single, den u r ready.. n certain touching can definately arrouse emotion (we are programmmed in our DNA to enjoy dat). finally like what jason mae journal mentioned, in his fren teaching.. it is good to out in alliance our emotion with God leading..we are emotion being and its beautiful but we must keep check of it..i may sound like 'preachng' but its my own experience of defeat to emotion and the continous victory of Jesus.. psst, even as i type this, i am weeping of my pitfall of emotion..along with the very lie i believe which is using my own strength to guard my vulnerable or insecure heart instead of trusting God to guard it(this is from debbie blog, an old fren from a few years back combined church camp.. i am like whoa, dat hit me literally, i did dat too as the realization come)
marriage nwadays is another issue, the dissatifaction out of it, divorce and abuse..the children who have to face the harsh effect of divorce, and the etc effect after they grow up..
and this fren, wrote "who can sit still watching as the world degrades everything that God gives to us. We degrade sex (into an industry), marriage (into a hindrance and legal leeway(sp?)), love (into something only people who visit whore houses are led to believe), bodies (into machines of forceful attraction) and so on. "
i totally agree and inspired by it..
globalisation is another issue dear to my heart.. it is one of my subject.. my lecturer let us watch a video regarding globalisation.. one video that stirred me up is the secret filming of companies such as GAP, NIKE, REABOK, MacDonald and more western corporations.. the workers of the corporations were mostly from cambodia and indonesia, so when film, the workers were interviewed and their lifestyle are documented.. its just sad when u know that the ethics for labour from the countries are not make known to them, they are free to be exploited as the government can't do anything about it, due to the system.. the labour work, 36 hours, standing and only receive minimum wages.. they barely survive.. and they get poorer by each day.. n the best part is, unisonly people like us belive thr is ntg much to be done, we can't are much about it because it is everywhere.. u have to learn to live with it.. i noe its ridiculous, but if God lead, i may go for mission, since God have planted seed of compassion into my heart for ppl who suffer unjustice.. so again u can't help but weep wen u c the condition esp if u wake up feeling like a 'princess' and nw u realise ppl wake up feeling unworthy, exhausted and hopeless, n wat a 'big' fren said come to me, we r very pampered generation..i noe i noe, i m melancholy lol..
just a ranting from me.. signing out ppl..
luv... xy
p.s visit http://jaesonma.com/2008/10/call-response.html
this call + response is a documentary film, made timely to fight human slavery: sex slavery, labor slavery, child soldiers and child slavery.. even as i talk about gobalisation, God guide me the way to pray for the spiritual realm to move and freedom to come.. we are not fighting the corporation, but the stronghold on the slavery.. n nw, even as jason mae blog came out with this, let us try to take action and be aware of the issues...www.callandresponse.com .. this film is launching nationally on 10th of oct.. plz support
Wednesday, October 08, 2008
for updating purpose
from the title it sound lame lol.. i mean like hw many times i use similar title before..
anyway, i know my hiatus have been long .. but then, haha, i just don't find the need to blog.. hmm..
life have been life.. pretty interesting.. n alwiz fail to actually study.. sadness..
have a blast in my recent hari raya, with tea party and BBQ.. pics in facebook .. =) even the tea party and bbq have been a veri personal and interesting testimony to me (if u r really interested to know, dial my number =) ).. n it have sure bring blessing to me and hopefully others.. i can only say i am once again surprise and humbled by God way of moving even through this party..
n i nvr in my life i have tea party lol
and thx for the wong kok lunch too.. and thx for a bracelet with my name and the lovely card =) i am blessed early along with others.. but, i am still waiting for the real date of my birthday hint hint..
errrr, here come the 'melancholy me', if given a choice, i wanna go to beach, all alone, with no connection and just spend time with God.. and after the ministering of the holy spirit seminar in my church, PS. Serena reminded dat it is essential to spend 2 or 3 days completely alone with God.. dat stirred me up.. a new desire to just back pack and travel alone with only God is my desire, and if God wan it, HE will grant me the opportunity.. fiy, mich adi got me travelling Christian book lol thxkie..
oh ya, the seminar is another cool part and pieces of my journey.. learning to just trust in God even as the insecurity and intimidation surface while training to prophesies.. the fears of past mistake due to immaturity of prophesying resurface, but as i choose to persevere instead of following my feeling to run away, God honor me by giving me victory over it.. and of cos, the loving and encouraging environment condition is really a blessing.. and what i have receive from God is truly a blessing... i can't forget when aunty christine cried when aunty sue and me share about the baby in her stomach.. and God show her through us how much HE know the baby.. for me, showing me the gender (they noe its a gal but i dun, till God show me) and for aunty sue, God show the little gal is playing with toys.. when she debrieft and share, she just broke down.. lotsa excitement and fire after the seminar as our church is brethen denomination (opps, i noe this is a sensitive issue). just really glad to c my church direction.. n for some, it may not be powerful, but for us, it is the path we are walking as slow as we are.. and i am blessed with the heart of the people of my church.... for me, i am humbled as i am to show ppl HIS beauty, a prophesy close to my heart.. and bringing hope to the broken and destitute.. and amazing hw fast and true God show me about this in the party (again, details are withhold for some reason, u can try asking me in my contact number) ... nt just dat, recently God have been bringing ppl dat need consultation on stuff (nt dat i m gud at counselling) .. i can see the season i m in nw in a sense, ready to bring God love but still with HIS 'lovely' healing (lovely coz my room will be flooded by tears, eyes as big as pumpkin the next day jk jk )
and i will restrain myself from typing certain 'ear or eyes catching' news a.k.a drama (i will call it gossip and dat means i won't b talking bout it without reason, n only restricted to the group involved, its private, personal and confidencial) in mine or in the certain circle of my frens life.. lol.. this wan, if u feel fish to noe, call my frens, if u happen to noe who to contact.. =p oh n thx for the sincere concern n support shown.. err, i have no idea y i sound like something serious happen, dun worry its nt life threatening, just dat this do not need any publicity..
p.s and today is actually michelle goh birthday.. haha.. hope she like the cup cake eventough she can c some alphabets on it, due to the 'perfect' way of me taking it.. n i did try my best to maintain the balance of the cupcake while in my hand alrite.. =p May u r blessed with this little efforts of mine.. (if u read my blog haha)
and i can't wait to watch mamma mia with her n etc..
and i m also really glad dat mun yee is blessed on her 19th birthday.. n wen she come bck.. our plan can come true.. m y, i m waiting... haha
anyway, i know my hiatus have been long .. but then, haha, i just don't find the need to blog.. hmm..
life have been life.. pretty interesting.. n alwiz fail to actually study.. sadness..
have a blast in my recent hari raya, with tea party and BBQ.. pics in facebook .. =) even the tea party and bbq have been a veri personal and interesting testimony to me (if u r really interested to know, dial my number =) ).. n it have sure bring blessing to me and hopefully others.. i can only say i am once again surprise and humbled by God way of moving even through this party..
n i nvr in my life i have tea party lol
and thx for the wong kok lunch too.. and thx for a bracelet with my name and the lovely card =) i am blessed early along with others.. but, i am still waiting for the real date of my birthday hint hint..
errrr, here come the 'melancholy me', if given a choice, i wanna go to beach, all alone, with no connection and just spend time with God.. and after the ministering of the holy spirit seminar in my church, PS. Serena reminded dat it is essential to spend 2 or 3 days completely alone with God.. dat stirred me up.. a new desire to just back pack and travel alone with only God is my desire, and if God wan it, HE will grant me the opportunity.. fiy, mich adi got me travelling Christian book lol thxkie..
oh ya, the seminar is another cool part and pieces of my journey.. learning to just trust in God even as the insecurity and intimidation surface while training to prophesies.. the fears of past mistake due to immaturity of prophesying resurface, but as i choose to persevere instead of following my feeling to run away, God honor me by giving me victory over it.. and of cos, the loving and encouraging environment condition is really a blessing.. and what i have receive from God is truly a blessing... i can't forget when aunty christine cried when aunty sue and me share about the baby in her stomach.. and God show her through us how much HE know the baby.. for me, showing me the gender (they noe its a gal but i dun, till God show me) and for aunty sue, God show the little gal is playing with toys.. when she debrieft and share, she just broke down.. lotsa excitement and fire after the seminar as our church is brethen denomination (opps, i noe this is a sensitive issue). just really glad to c my church direction.. n for some, it may not be powerful, but for us, it is the path we are walking as slow as we are.. and i am blessed with the heart of the people of my church.... for me, i am humbled as i am to show ppl HIS beauty, a prophesy close to my heart.. and bringing hope to the broken and destitute.. and amazing hw fast and true God show me about this in the party (again, details are withhold for some reason, u can try asking me in my contact number) ... nt just dat, recently God have been bringing ppl dat need consultation on stuff (nt dat i m gud at counselling) .. i can see the season i m in nw in a sense, ready to bring God love but still with HIS 'lovely' healing (lovely coz my room will be flooded by tears, eyes as big as pumpkin the next day jk jk )
and i will restrain myself from typing certain 'ear or eyes catching' news a.k.a drama (i will call it gossip and dat means i won't b talking bout it without reason, n only restricted to the group involved, its private, personal and confidencial) in mine or in the certain circle of my frens life.. lol.. this wan, if u feel fish to noe, call my frens, if u happen to noe who to contact.. =p oh n thx for the sincere concern n support shown.. err, i have no idea y i sound like something serious happen, dun worry its nt life threatening, just dat this do not need any publicity..
p.s and today is actually michelle goh birthday.. haha.. hope she like the cup cake eventough she can c some alphabets on it, due to the 'perfect' way of me taking it.. n i did try my best to maintain the balance of the cupcake while in my hand alrite.. =p May u r blessed with this little efforts of mine.. (if u read my blog haha)
and i can't wait to watch mamma mia with her n etc..
and i m also really glad dat mun yee is blessed on her 19th birthday.. n wen she come bck.. our plan can come true.. m y, i m waiting... haha
Monday, August 18, 2008
beauty part 2 haha..
been thinking of it lately, ever since i blog, i have been thinking about beauty so much lately..
Beauty is to accept the imperfection within us and LOVING IT.. I have to admit this is tough one.. i for once is with alot of imperfection, or so i think.. being bombarded with comments like, oh, u look like malay, u so dark.. and mum wanting me to put powder and cutting my foods intake make me obsess about my complexion and weight, nt mentioning my height.. i am below 160.. thrfore i hated sun, and try hard to exercise and cutting foods.. i know some gals go the extreme miles of nt eating at all.. recently my paranoid situation over my skin started when i have to walk alot under the sun and for the sports carnival in kota damansara just finished last sat have reached it maximum.. and u dun wan to noe the exact details.. lol.. so this make me think, izzit worth it to be worried and do every single thing to ensure my 'beauty'..
The thing is, y izzit so important to gals to be beautiful.. and what is the true defination of beauty, since we are alwiz bombared with beauty by media.. since my paranoid situation, i have know and more aware of hw much I (perhaps other gals) are shaped by the perception of media.. not to forget we have the tendency to compete out of jealousy... its our nature desire to be beautiful, thrfore we compete and jealous with other gals, when u desire something, envy will come to ppl who think they dun have it..
so, bck to the question, y izzit so important to be beautiful? y nt cute or just simple? of course none wanna be ugly.. bt the question remain.. y we spend tons and tons of time to be beautiful or secretly wishing we are beautiful? or some just go and have plastic surgery like in nip and tuck.. the sad part is the gals did not gain true self confident even after plastic surgery.. and even models, they have problem with beauty as much as they denied it. i mean, whats with the exessive make up and regular meeting with plastic surgery (in janice modelling company).. and yet we believe dat is the standard of beautiful or hot or gorgeous.. trust me, even beautiful gals are insecure.. they still think, they can be more beautiful.. whreas in some situation, a beautiful lady is a bridge for her to connect with ppl, as ppl will naturally be astounded by her beauty and want to noe her, bt her personality is shy, so ppl bck out, and turn to a simple gal but with bubbling character..
at the end, my question remains, but the word someone once told me keep echoing to me, to be beautiful, u must realize u r beautiful deep down.. and while my paranoid come to a highest point, the source of Beauty came.. telling me dat i need nt worry bout my flesh, it will be alrite, and HE is the beauty, the source of our desire to be beautiful (beauty not in flesh but every aspect of us)
Beauty is to accept the imperfection within us and LOVING IT.. I have to admit this is tough one.. i for once is with alot of imperfection, or so i think.. being bombarded with comments like, oh, u look like malay, u so dark.. and mum wanting me to put powder and cutting my foods intake make me obsess about my complexion and weight, nt mentioning my height.. i am below 160.. thrfore i hated sun, and try hard to exercise and cutting foods.. i know some gals go the extreme miles of nt eating at all.. recently my paranoid situation over my skin started when i have to walk alot under the sun and for the sports carnival in kota damansara just finished last sat have reached it maximum.. and u dun wan to noe the exact details.. lol.. so this make me think, izzit worth it to be worried and do every single thing to ensure my 'beauty'..
The thing is, y izzit so important to gals to be beautiful.. and what is the true defination of beauty, since we are alwiz bombared with beauty by media.. since my paranoid situation, i have know and more aware of hw much I (perhaps other gals) are shaped by the perception of media.. not to forget we have the tendency to compete out of jealousy... its our nature desire to be beautiful, thrfore we compete and jealous with other gals, when u desire something, envy will come to ppl who think they dun have it..
so, bck to the question, y izzit so important to be beautiful? y nt cute or just simple? of course none wanna be ugly.. bt the question remain.. y we spend tons and tons of time to be beautiful or secretly wishing we are beautiful? or some just go and have plastic surgery like in nip and tuck.. the sad part is the gals did not gain true self confident even after plastic surgery.. and even models, they have problem with beauty as much as they denied it. i mean, whats with the exessive make up and regular meeting with plastic surgery (in janice modelling company).. and yet we believe dat is the standard of beautiful or hot or gorgeous.. trust me, even beautiful gals are insecure.. they still think, they can be more beautiful.. whreas in some situation, a beautiful lady is a bridge for her to connect with ppl, as ppl will naturally be astounded by her beauty and want to noe her, bt her personality is shy, so ppl bck out, and turn to a simple gal but with bubbling character..
at the end, my question remains, but the word someone once told me keep echoing to me, to be beautiful, u must realize u r beautiful deep down.. and while my paranoid come to a highest point, the source of Beauty came.. telling me dat i need nt worry bout my flesh, it will be alrite, and HE is the beauty, the source of our desire to be beautiful (beauty not in flesh but every aspect of us)
swing
i personally luv to swing.. i can't explain hw dear it is to me.. i have taken a love on swing since small.. the feeling to be push or pushing urself and den when the swing go high, ur heart soar with it.. with a certain fear when the swing fly high on sky, i learn the fact dat i luv adventure/freedom but thr tis fear to limit me from unleashing too far ahead.. encounters to be push and to trust the person who push me my safety is another lesson.. like the book girl on the
swing.. its a beautiful encounter with God, being a girl and on swing with God..
thr is this experience i wan to share, i call it "the swing encounter".. thr are a few time, where my Father will bring me in time of need to swing, and as he sit with me side by side, sometime pushing me.. normally bringing company, luv and comfort to me.. its a Father and daugther time.. dat y dat day, even as me and michelle g went to park nearby my hse, and thr is a swing, veri big and high, wen i swing on it, remind me of heaven.. i can hear my heartbeat and even in the height, something in me rested.. the sky is dark, bt something is shinning-it feels like heaven.. i cry, laugh and soar on the swing.. nt fearing to fall and the height.. i luv swing!
Saturday, August 09, 2008
cosmetics story
cosmetics bring along the story and whole history of ladies desiring to enhance their beauty of to tranform to be beautiful.. personally, i have encounter some issue over this story.. in search of the beauty within me, i encountered words like, u better put some foundation, because my collegue say u look like malay and dark, very words from my mum.. and then, you don't know how to groom yourself, don't know how to make up and dress up, by my boss of event planning, whom i work for internship.. so after my boss commented, i run to the nearest guardian and bought cosmetics.. along with my mum cosmetic and some my collection but nvr used, i embarked on a journey of applying foundation a.k.a make ups. bt i came to realize cosmetic is not a problem to help u to b presentable or enhance what u have but nt to make u beautiful.. Beauty is when ur face shine naturally after an encounter with God, none can resist dat.. beauty is wen u r able to breath freely in life-to be true to yourself and others.. beauty is wen u r assured of ur identity, beauty is wen u r loved or in love, beauty is when u have joy in life (notice hw beautiful it is when u smile or laugh?), beauty is rest and grace, beauty is the picture of triumph after trials..beauty is when u love urself with God eyes, being comfortable in what God created u to be..beauty is when something in u is birthing with anticipation, thr is life within u- do u realize how divine a pregnant lady who is overjoy while waiting for the baby arrival.. beauty is awakening of heart- where all the beautiful poems comes in.. beauty is soothing cream to the soul,light to the heart and eternal(everlasting, one that u will keep looking at, asking for more and nvr be bored) which captured your heart (beauty is capturing)- once u c true beauty, ur heart will forever remember it and be transformed by it. beauty is pure innocent and simplicity- i remember my mum used to share hw my dad will chase those small little innocent girls, and treat them like princess.. beauty is powerful- y so?coz in bible, esther use her beauty to help save his ppl- the power to fight and conquer.Even in many other example, hw many women use their beauty for gud and evil purpose... Beauty is definately an expression of heart, the depth of soul- even in tv series for eg, no matter how pretty is the evil character, u will not find her beautiful (even pretty) after some time, bt for the heroin, eventough she may be simple at first, bt u will find her beautiful if the show potray her with her inner strength (ability to love, forgive, patience, gud hearted, and etc)
hw much we desire beauty but it is so not appearance... if appearance its called pretty or gorgeous or hot. bt beauty is diff.. and thr is ntg wrong to use cosmetic, dun get me wrong.. and its a gift for girls who dun need to use cosmetics.. wat a liberation.. dun need to rush in the morning to apply.. dun need to spend tons n tons of moeny of cosmetics.. beauty care products are different..
nw, let me give a true eg of beauty after encounter from God, i was baptised in this year easter.. i know God glory is with me, and after baptised, 2 guys came and tell me i look veri beautiful and radiant.. and i knew God shine through me.. =)
tis will remind u about moses.. when he lead the israel people as God appoint him to.. one day, as he was instructed to seek God alone on a mountain top, wen he came down, his face were shinning as a result of encounter with God, till moses have to use veil when he face the people..nw dat is beauty inside out, don't u think so?
Wednesday, August 06, 2008
a new season
ok, humans..sry sry that i didn't update for long d.. *blush* .. so after much pressure from michelle g & mun yee.lol.. i am hereby blogging, thus breaking free from hiatus.. what a start for this new post =) ..
i have alot alot to say, but dunno whr to start..
first thing first, my class have started for a week.. means i have finished the endless and repeatitive work of calling ppl as telemarketing..
second.. i cannot say how excited i am to be a part of kdu campus church.. this ministry have been veri powerful.. and nw we have prayer meet every thurs, with worship, sharing about the interecessor book by dutch sheet.. after dat, we will pray for what is in the team heart.. the team consists of mr kenny, the leader, jia leng, aaron tam, roy, karen, me.. yoke kheng and uncle chris join us too..
also, nw me and yoke kheng are having bible study with karen ng at 7pm.. assurance salvation have been gud.. and three of us are comfortable, eating while doing bible study hahah..
one thing, God have really been bringing me to another season, and i am walking it with excitement .. so sry if i am suddenly bursting out with words and all..only certain ppl understand the reason lol.. so bear with me.. esp mun yee lol.. u noe since i told u lol.. its really a encouragement for me to share with u our experience and all.. and our journey ..its beautiful what our Father have in store for us.. and its my privillege and joy to be go through it with u.. sigh, since u & anna left, me really deprived of girls hahah.. can't wait to c u soon.. cute gal! pray dat i will be connected with gals dat i have nw..n i will do vice versa too..
ps. passion world tour is just wow and powerful~!! and i am glad louie giglo shared Ashley stories.. and michelle goh, i noe u really like it..lol.. or feel.. and u went and download chris tomlin songs.. and u were questioning me about amazing grace..
oh ya, my church is launching the alpha course too .. can't wait..
so, like what michelle put it- grace is getting what we don't deserve...
stay blessed ppl!
Friday, June 20, 2008
intro of a blog-courtesy of anna
anna found this blog by random and i find it veri nice.. the post about father is just beautiful..
http://www.trevorromain.com/blog/archives/2007/06/
after i read the letter from the writer to his dad, i just wan my dad n also mum to know that i really appreciate them for what they did for me n just for being my parent.. and i hope i am not a burden to them...
http://www.trevorromain.com/blog/archives/2007/06/
after i read the letter from the writer to his dad, i just wan my dad n also mum to know that i really appreciate them for what they did for me n just for being my parent.. and i hope i am not a burden to them...
Thursday, June 12, 2008
movies
ok..let see.. i watch iron man, kung fu panda and amazing grace..
iron man- its a techno movie, somewat cause a hit like transformer and all.. this for me is a movie with a plot that will leave you want to be hero.. an epic story which consist of actions, great gadgets, brain, adventures, romance and a purpose to live and to fight for.. our hero here is heart broken when his father is mentioned as he died in car accident and all.. in the "wilderness" when he was captured by the bad guys, he finally realize about his life and his dad life.. and he found his purpose and use his genious for great purpose (the one for his heart and to stop destruction of world, which is the suit of couse).. bfore dat, he just lead empty life, drinking, leisure, sex and leave the company in the hand of his workers or guardiance.. and i think the plot regarding the betrayer of guardiance is certainly painful as it should be someone you trust.. and the aloneness as he is on a project no one trusted can come true.. and of course, nice cars, nice suit and all..oh, and imitation is always not original .. like the iron suit the guardian copied... he didnt think of the ice problem.. romance wen he chosen this sweet asistance of his instead of flings,a gal dat stayed with him throughout years and is trusted with his wellbeing.. dat can go through dangerous time for him..
kung fu panda- i like this line, thr is no secret ingredient, but if you believe it is, it will be so.. and this is also a movie of searching a depth of identity.. searching of who you are.. and that do you become what ur parent think u should or you pursue your passion (the dream he have at the start of the movie) while honouring them.. also, the sifu learned that to train a person, you have to believe in him and find a unique wat to train.. no one is the same way.. panda also struggle with the fact that no one look up to him as the chosen one, that he is capable to achieve the task.. he also compared himself to the furious five who are greatly trained in kung fu..bside the point he idolized the furious five and so excited to know them..here you can see the issue of intidimation (or inadequate) is one dat ppl suffered... when the danger lurk, he give in to low self esteem and doubt and fear.. bt last minute his dad reminded him of the 'secret ingredient' thus allowed him to choose the victory.. oh as victory and respect from others are in hand, panda did not forget his sifu and show respect to him..he also accompanied him after dat.. ppl especially young ppl are hunger and in search for a sage-someone to trained you with wisdom and love.. and we need to learn the art of submitting, respecting and blessing them.. its a beautiful plot..with lotsa sense of humour.. like Po said in his animated dream, thr is no charge to awesomeness and atrractiveness!
amazing grace- beautiful history.. a man that is given this burden to fight for slaves even as he himself is sick and the fight took years bfore he and the others suceeded in abolishing the slaves rules.. tis is another epic movie too.. with a cause to fight for and romance... i like the romance here, which took years to blossom and build.. of course the politic is another important element in House of Common.. this may not be an easy movie to understand per say..but its a heart stirring one.. to see one nearly lost hope in a battle for a better world and then hope arise again, ushering more ideas to win the fight.. the purpose one hold which prompt him to live on.. the cry of one heart who have been through the horrible experience yet ppl leave wen the issue is being preach or brought up.. one thing, this movie focus richly on the fighther of the cause rather on the ppl dat is in the cause.. if they show a little scene dat slaves on the ship in boxes instead of just the tools, it will be more effective.. tis will enable the audiences to "smell the death" on the madagascar ship.. oh, and i can't explain the feeling when victory were finally gained after all the years.. the intensity of it.. imagine, relieved, joy, "finally we did it" and the "I win" feelings.the mixture of feelings..
iron man- its a techno movie, somewat cause a hit like transformer and all.. this for me is a movie with a plot that will leave you want to be hero.. an epic story which consist of actions, great gadgets, brain, adventures, romance and a purpose to live and to fight for.. our hero here is heart broken when his father is mentioned as he died in car accident and all.. in the "wilderness" when he was captured by the bad guys, he finally realize about his life and his dad life.. and he found his purpose and use his genious for great purpose (the one for his heart and to stop destruction of world, which is the suit of couse).. bfore dat, he just lead empty life, drinking, leisure, sex and leave the company in the hand of his workers or guardiance.. and i think the plot regarding the betrayer of guardiance is certainly painful as it should be someone you trust.. and the aloneness as he is on a project no one trusted can come true.. and of course, nice cars, nice suit and all..oh, and imitation is always not original .. like the iron suit the guardian copied... he didnt think of the ice problem.. romance wen he chosen this sweet asistance of his instead of flings,a gal dat stayed with him throughout years and is trusted with his wellbeing.. dat can go through dangerous time for him..
kung fu panda- i like this line, thr is no secret ingredient, but if you believe it is, it will be so.. and this is also a movie of searching a depth of identity.. searching of who you are.. and that do you become what ur parent think u should or you pursue your passion (the dream he have at the start of the movie) while honouring them.. also, the sifu learned that to train a person, you have to believe in him and find a unique wat to train.. no one is the same way.. panda also struggle with the fact that no one look up to him as the chosen one, that he is capable to achieve the task.. he also compared himself to the furious five who are greatly trained in kung fu..bside the point he idolized the furious five and so excited to know them..here you can see the issue of intidimation (or inadequate) is one dat ppl suffered... when the danger lurk, he give in to low self esteem and doubt and fear.. bt last minute his dad reminded him of the 'secret ingredient' thus allowed him to choose the victory.. oh as victory and respect from others are in hand, panda did not forget his sifu and show respect to him..he also accompanied him after dat.. ppl especially young ppl are hunger and in search for a sage-someone to trained you with wisdom and love.. and we need to learn the art of submitting, respecting and blessing them.. its a beautiful plot..with lotsa sense of humour.. like Po said in his animated dream, thr is no charge to awesomeness and atrractiveness!
amazing grace- beautiful history.. a man that is given this burden to fight for slaves even as he himself is sick and the fight took years bfore he and the others suceeded in abolishing the slaves rules.. tis is another epic movie too.. with a cause to fight for and romance... i like the romance here, which took years to blossom and build.. of course the politic is another important element in House of Common.. this may not be an easy movie to understand per say..but its a heart stirring one.. to see one nearly lost hope in a battle for a better world and then hope arise again, ushering more ideas to win the fight.. the purpose one hold which prompt him to live on.. the cry of one heart who have been through the horrible experience yet ppl leave wen the issue is being preach or brought up.. one thing, this movie focus richly on the fighther of the cause rather on the ppl dat is in the cause.. if they show a little scene dat slaves on the ship in boxes instead of just the tools, it will be more effective.. tis will enable the audiences to "smell the death" on the madagascar ship.. oh, and i can't explain the feeling when victory were finally gained after all the years.. the intensity of it.. imagine, relieved, joy, "finally we did it" and the "I win" feelings.the mixture of feelings..
Sunday, June 08, 2008
something came to me......
As i said in previous post, i am bursting with thoughts and words..
thr goes.. my bro just came bck from a motivation camp.. they have a book, which is written by max lucado.. its a story about a village live by small wood made people crafted by a carpenter who live on a hill top so that he can watch the wood people. the wood people go by living with sticking either a star or grey circle to each other. star means either you are a beautiful people or you are talented. grey circle means you are ugly or not talented. there is this guy, Lo, people called him fat guy and he is clumsy and not talented beside ugly. he often will be stick with grey circle, sometimes for no reason. This result in his low self esteem and isolated behaviour.
one day, he met a girl who doesn't have any sticker on her body, people who try to stick sticker just fail to let it stay on her. so he ask her about it and she brought him to the carpenter. there, the carpenter said he have been awaiting his arrival and answer Lo why the girl didn't have sticker. it is because, she value the carpenter view than the others.. she know the carpenter created her uniqely and accept her for who she is, not her appearance nor hw talented she is. and the carpenter gently tell LO, because he created them, thefore he cared for them.. and bcoz they care about the sticker, then only it will stick, if Lo, place his believe in carpener, Lo will not care bout the sticker, and it wont stick anymore.. bfore Lo leave, he finally realize dat he is special, and he can't wait to meet the carpenter again.. with this thought, one grey circle fell off.. till den..
it just reminded me to bck to basic.. its a children or teenager book i noe..bt hw much we need to grasp tis.. n we need more of tis kind of book.. most of the time, a relationship with God, u just need to be back to basic, to realize your worth in HIM and let the river of HIS love flow..
p.s tis afternoon.. while i was on the computer.. a tiny pinch come to me.. all the word dat i m fat and all, all the vainess which is alwiz thr come to me at once, not in a pain form but more of awakening form, i noe i have to do something.. i decided to not let it control me.. all the furstration and toil that it caused.. well, i will not go on to all the reason why the word fat form in my mind.. the important part is just at dat awakening time, a liberating thought come to me, a thought that everyone should be confident of who they are, beauty in diff form, shape (size) and packages.. its the confident that make you beautiful, the shine, the confident glow of loving urself for u.. i realized, i am healthy, nt fat.. well, i m not saying, stop all the gym and exercise.. bt don't believe in lie dat damage you, or control u as it linger ur mind.. i was a victim till nw.. n i may continue to battle it but i pray to be reminded of the above simple liberating truth.. nw, i can see my pics and smile, really.. those pics that i hated it bfore.. i believe i need not mention who bring the liberating truth rite? hehe.. still, fiy, its HIM..
thr goes.. my bro just came bck from a motivation camp.. they have a book, which is written by max lucado.. its a story about a village live by small wood made people crafted by a carpenter who live on a hill top so that he can watch the wood people. the wood people go by living with sticking either a star or grey circle to each other. star means either you are a beautiful people or you are talented. grey circle means you are ugly or not talented. there is this guy, Lo, people called him fat guy and he is clumsy and not talented beside ugly. he often will be stick with grey circle, sometimes for no reason. This result in his low self esteem and isolated behaviour.
one day, he met a girl who doesn't have any sticker on her body, people who try to stick sticker just fail to let it stay on her. so he ask her about it and she brought him to the carpenter. there, the carpenter said he have been awaiting his arrival and answer Lo why the girl didn't have sticker. it is because, she value the carpenter view than the others.. she know the carpenter created her uniqely and accept her for who she is, not her appearance nor hw talented she is. and the carpenter gently tell LO, because he created them, thefore he cared for them.. and bcoz they care about the sticker, then only it will stick, if Lo, place his believe in carpener, Lo will not care bout the sticker, and it wont stick anymore.. bfore Lo leave, he finally realize dat he is special, and he can't wait to meet the carpenter again.. with this thought, one grey circle fell off.. till den..
it just reminded me to bck to basic.. its a children or teenager book i noe..bt hw much we need to grasp tis.. n we need more of tis kind of book.. most of the time, a relationship with God, u just need to be back to basic, to realize your worth in HIM and let the river of HIS love flow..
p.s tis afternoon.. while i was on the computer.. a tiny pinch come to me.. all the word dat i m fat and all, all the vainess which is alwiz thr come to me at once, not in a pain form but more of awakening form, i noe i have to do something.. i decided to not let it control me.. all the furstration and toil that it caused.. well, i will not go on to all the reason why the word fat form in my mind.. the important part is just at dat awakening time, a liberating thought come to me, a thought that everyone should be confident of who they are, beauty in diff form, shape (size) and packages.. its the confident that make you beautiful, the shine, the confident glow of loving urself for u.. i realized, i am healthy, nt fat.. well, i m not saying, stop all the gym and exercise.. bt don't believe in lie dat damage you, or control u as it linger ur mind.. i was a victim till nw.. n i may continue to battle it but i pray to be reminded of the above simple liberating truth.. nw, i can see my pics and smile, really.. those pics that i hated it bfore.. i believe i need not mention who bring the liberating truth rite? hehe.. still, fiy, its HIM..
Friday, June 06, 2008
backie me
i m bck from a spirit filled camp.. pics in facebook.. one word, tis camp leave me longing for more of God.. Praise HIM! the audio and power point is available.. i wanted to share more bout tis camp, bt frankly i dunno hw else to describe it, God just present HIMSELF beautifully thr, along with the theme of our camp, God love our passion.. HIS love just flow in worship and msg, devotion and altercall.. HIS glory stirred the passion in us.. dats it.. period..
finish my exam.. will be working soon hopefully.. waiting for confirmation from michelle and arrangement.. the next 2 months will b a diff journey.. let see whr God wan me to be la..
and i m loving the community of my church.. the fellowship just make u comfortable, like a truly loving family.. the prayer meet in my church is another spirit filled meeting (duh lol)
kdu CF is launching passion soon.. pray for it! a evangelism event.. fiy, can't wait to combine with KBU cf more.. its cool to noe them.. CF camp tis year will include them..wohoo..
ps. i can't describe exactly hw Gos is working in me nw, its overwhelming honestly.. anyhw, like uncle weng chiong put it, let Jesus shine in u, den it will overflow.. i m bursting inside with words, but circumstances and time will let me say it (of course i ask God to grant me wisdom to say it).. haha.. n i notice, nwadays, once u mention something i can share, i will have the impulse to keep sharing.. till the stirring to share in me is over, den i will stop or till circumstances make me stop.. lol.. its interesting la, so will c hw it goes..just a random thought bout myself..
finish my exam.. will be working soon hopefully.. waiting for confirmation from michelle and arrangement.. the next 2 months will b a diff journey.. let see whr God wan me to be la..
and i m loving the community of my church.. the fellowship just make u comfortable, like a truly loving family.. the prayer meet in my church is another spirit filled meeting (duh lol)
kdu CF is launching passion soon.. pray for it! a evangelism event.. fiy, can't wait to combine with KBU cf more.. its cool to noe them.. CF camp tis year will include them..wohoo..
ps. i can't describe exactly hw Gos is working in me nw, its overwhelming honestly.. anyhw, like uncle weng chiong put it, let Jesus shine in u, den it will overflow.. i m bursting inside with words, but circumstances and time will let me say it (of course i ask God to grant me wisdom to say it).. haha.. n i notice, nwadays, once u mention something i can share, i will have the impulse to keep sharing.. till the stirring to share in me is over, den i will stop or till circumstances make me stop.. lol.. its interesting la, so will c hw it goes..just a random thought bout myself..
Sunday, May 18, 2008
updates
global prayer day is over.. i dun noe hw to describe it except powerful... for those who go, praise God.. pray that the pledge that have been done that day, will be fullfilled with God grace.. and all the prayer on that day, will move the spiritual dimension on God timing..
continue to pray for global rice crisis.. for me, it seem like some place will soon meet famine just as written in bible.. just perhaps la..
of course pray for china and myanmar.. that ppl will be comforted even at tis time.. pray that more ppl will continue to help the victim.. even at this grieving time,gud thing dat come out is ppl show their heart to other human, which is not a often scenery at tis new era.. tis thought keep lingering in my head, ppl will ask y God allow tis to happen? y so many natural disaster strike now? whr is God at tis time? i dun have the answer, bt GOD have..n most of the time, we wont understand HIS plan, bt with HIS wisdom, we will..
continue to cover kdu cf leaders.. last fri, we have a time of surrendering to God lead by miss angeline.. a time to reconsider our priorities is to love God first, not to serve HIM without knowing HIM.. As we kneel and bow, may God awaken our heart again to HIM.. back to the basic...
my church camp is in 9 days!!!!! can't wait!!! our church t-shirt rocks .. and we can swim and go caving...
p.s happy wesak day... and i dun celebrate it ppl.
continue to pray for global rice crisis.. for me, it seem like some place will soon meet famine just as written in bible.. just perhaps la..
of course pray for china and myanmar.. that ppl will be comforted even at tis time.. pray that more ppl will continue to help the victim.. even at this grieving time,gud thing dat come out is ppl show their heart to other human, which is not a often scenery at tis new era.. tis thought keep lingering in my head, ppl will ask y God allow tis to happen? y so many natural disaster strike now? whr is God at tis time? i dun have the answer, bt GOD have..n most of the time, we wont understand HIS plan, bt with HIS wisdom, we will..
continue to cover kdu cf leaders.. last fri, we have a time of surrendering to God lead by miss angeline.. a time to reconsider our priorities is to love God first, not to serve HIM without knowing HIM.. As we kneel and bow, may God awaken our heart again to HIM.. back to the basic...
my church camp is in 9 days!!!!! can't wait!!! our church t-shirt rocks .. and we can swim and go caving...
p.s happy wesak day... and i dun celebrate it ppl.
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
touching
just watch a series drama..
a daugther is worried about her dad as bfore her marriage, she found out his dad change to women at a night club every night.. so, she decided to follow her dad after she consulted a doc.. and she found out that it is the last day the dad will work as the singer thr, known as 'mum Gigi'.. and he gave a speech.. a story about how he met the wife Gigi at this very night club, and he felt in love with the song she sang, they courted and get married, have a daugther, but she pass away one day.. and after dat, he started to be like her every night at the night club, dressing like her and sing the same song she sang..and he is quiting this nightclub job bcoz the daugther getting married..
at last, the truth is clear and the daugther weep, realizing the dad dress as women bcoz he misses her mum so much..
such a depth of a man love towards the wife even after 20 years.. i havent mention how he try to provide what he could to the daugther..
a daugther is worried about her dad as bfore her marriage, she found out his dad change to women at a night club every night.. so, she decided to follow her dad after she consulted a doc.. and she found out that it is the last day the dad will work as the singer thr, known as 'mum Gigi'.. and he gave a speech.. a story about how he met the wife Gigi at this very night club, and he felt in love with the song she sang, they courted and get married, have a daugther, but she pass away one day.. and after dat, he started to be like her every night at the night club, dressing like her and sing the same song she sang..and he is quiting this nightclub job bcoz the daugther getting married..
at last, the truth is clear and the daugther weep, realizing the dad dress as women bcoz he misses her mum so much..
such a depth of a man love towards the wife even after 20 years.. i havent mention how he try to provide what he could to the daugther..
after ever..lol
yay yay!!!!! lol.. i m assured to be everlasting..hw cool is dat? its nt dat i nvr realized dat,bt just have a chat with my Father above.. sitting down on the bench in the park outside my hse.. HE answered me regarding wat i type the earlier post.. n i fill with Father love, knowing that no matter wat thr will b Someone to be with me no matter wat future may hold, bside the fact tat my future is in HIM.. n i somehw want to have to peek a view of my future, well, i do granted some access to it but of course it is better to be surprise..bt nw i just have a question, y do God still love me so much eventough i m doubtful of HIS unconditional love, especially when my heart is attacked by unsure (doubt)... but den, one thing, God love me so much till HE won't let me run from HIM too long.. n wen HE sense ur heart is troubled, HE alwiz come at the time wen u cannot stand it anymore.. HE wont let u roam free from the condition, n HE most wont let u off the hook.. dats wat a loving Father will do.. amen.. Praise HIM..
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
y post
cell group for cf starting tomolo.. oh boy, can't wait to know the members.. oh n guess wat, jason want to do alumni for cf.. he wan the history of cf.. history to b dig out should i say? lol.. like the artifact hidden bury down for thousands years waiting to be found.. interesting, all the ex commitees and all, u bet..
at tis moment, i am asking alot of why.. y God even bother to send Jesus for ppl like me (ppl like me, most of the time who doesnt noe hw to handle HIS love, who is stirred by small little matter), y i am xiying (i noe its lame), y can't i be more loving towards my studies n classses, y can't i love God more, y can't i hunger more, y i am asking so many y .. i guess all this y is dat nw my heart is just needing HIS guidance, teaching, n God wan us to be teachable, i hope my questions enable God to lead me a step deeper about HIM, even with the simple questions.. another thing is i m human who is given emotion bt seem to have too much of it..lol..literally.. bt emotion is given by God (its part of HIM) n its beautiful non the less, just sadly the fall of mankind unfortunately have corrupted it.. hmm, y do we feel? y do our heart feel the desire, needs, joy, love, pain, anger, lost and etc? guess HE do too... bt in a more 'matured,higher and sacred' version den us, n bcoz we r in HIS image, we can only pray dat like Father like children..for nw as my Father daugther, i m asking HIM to take care of my desire, and needs that have being stirred up for nw.. i see a road in front of me, long and endless.. n i say great, now i will walk on till dunno wen n with no direction.. i try to walk n i tripped, duh, with the intense darkness..n tears drop roll down on my cheek..bt God say, wait a minute, tis isnt life mend to be, with a snap of finger (imagine the sound in ur brain lol), the road is lighten, blinding me actually, n a big comfortable hand on me, n i see the signs post n all indicating whr i should go, then, God say, thr u go, tis is better.. its suppose to be dat way..i wipe my face, i rise n walk.. bracing forward.. well, i can guarantee i will tripped again, definately..i am professional in falling down on stairs n bus n etc..bt i believe in the big hand..
at tis moment, i am asking alot of why.. y God even bother to send Jesus for ppl like me (ppl like me, most of the time who doesnt noe hw to handle HIS love, who is stirred by small little matter), y i am xiying (i noe its lame), y can't i be more loving towards my studies n classses, y can't i love God more, y can't i hunger more, y i am asking so many y .. i guess all this y is dat nw my heart is just needing HIS guidance, teaching, n God wan us to be teachable, i hope my questions enable God to lead me a step deeper about HIM, even with the simple questions.. another thing is i m human who is given emotion bt seem to have too much of it..lol..literally.. bt emotion is given by God (its part of HIM) n its beautiful non the less, just sadly the fall of mankind unfortunately have corrupted it.. hmm, y do we feel? y do our heart feel the desire, needs, joy, love, pain, anger, lost and etc? guess HE do too... bt in a more 'matured,higher and sacred' version den us, n bcoz we r in HIS image, we can only pray dat like Father like children..for nw as my Father daugther, i m asking HIM to take care of my desire, and needs that have being stirred up for nw.. i see a road in front of me, long and endless.. n i say great, now i will walk on till dunno wen n with no direction.. i try to walk n i tripped, duh, with the intense darkness..n tears drop roll down on my cheek..bt God say, wait a minute, tis isnt life mend to be, with a snap of finger (imagine the sound in ur brain lol), the road is lighten, blinding me actually, n a big comfortable hand on me, n i see the signs post n all indicating whr i should go, then, God say, thr u go, tis is better.. its suppose to be dat way..i wipe my face, i rise n walk.. bracing forward.. well, i can guarantee i will tripped again, definately..i am professional in falling down on stairs n bus n etc..bt i believe in the big hand..
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
random nesssss
1. aaron t suddenly knows all your secrets. What do you have to say about that?
ntg to say..i will just slice his mouth lol..
2. Who would win in a duel, jason lee or aaron t? And what kind of duel would they pick, anyway?
ok, honestly i dunno.. they will pick dota or any games i think..lol..cheers
3. Do you think dan sim is a virgin?
roll on the floor laughing.. ahem, he is i think.. emphasize on i think lol
4. dan sim got turned into an animal! What animal is it?
mouse.. coz he look like mr brian n mr brian look like mouse..lol.i noe tis sound weird lol
5. Do you trust li yan?
as a fren, oh yes..
6. Would you love to read kenny chew's very personal diary?
tempting..bt no..i really respect him as teacher advisor n GG leader..
7. In a race between you, yong mun yee and aaron t, who would win?
lol..aaron t.. he is the tallest, with the longest legs among us., beside me n mun yee will talk n ignore the race lol..
8. Super fun fun adventure amusement park marathon with you, joram loo and abigail sim! How will it go?
lol.. emm, with abi keep taking pic of jo n poking jo? lol, she does dat on mun yee farewell..
9. Who's kenny chew dating?
no one.. alicia keys song =)..he is single n available.. candidate welcome.. lol
10. What's your fondest memory of jason lee?
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part 2
1. Does michelle goh have any pets?
yes.. her dog n etc.. he dog is her baby.. with the longest name i ever know.. n she call the dog precious
2. How did you meet aaron t?
lol.......on msn through mun yee.. n we didnt noe its the same person...till he say he is coming to kdu n den me n mun yee was wondering izzit the same person..so me n m y invite him to our chat..lol.. n was shock dat its the same person.. den finally met him in cf.. n the rest is history lol
3. Ever slept in the same room with joram loo?
...........................yes.. bt dun think other thing ok.. n no detail lol.. btw, he is just a bro dat i really respect..
4. What is one thing aaron t isn't exactly made for?
emm..........lol, singing i think.. no offend?
5. Have you dreamt of lik ee before?
plz.. no way..
6. dan sim just got vaporized in a freak accident. Now what?
emm....say gudbye for the last time in memorial? if he die adi.. n pray dat God take care of him in heaven? if he is in hospital, den c hw la..lol
7. What is or would be a good nickname for dan sim?
mousey lol
8. What's lik ee to you?
emm..ntg??? lol.. jk..ok la,lik ee is my bro in christ..
9. Describe mun yee in five words.
quiet (but can b talkative at times), listener, fragile, motherly, matured
10. What would you do if you hadn't met anna grace?
i won't have a sleeping partner lol, (i stay at her she for1 month), i won't know wat it means by helping a fren in needs which she show, alwiz offering ppl help.. n i wont get emo becoz of her.. oh i m guilty of treating her for granted at times.. i wont b enjoying the frenship with gal..i wont have all the beroom talk.. i wont feel the loss wen she leave soon to aussie.. okok, enough emo d.. i will save it later ..
http://mct421.deviantart.com/art/Question-Meme-Generator-69266481
courtesy of mun yee..=)
ntg to say..i will just slice his mouth lol..
2. Who would win in a duel, jason lee or aaron t? And what kind of duel would they pick, anyway?
ok, honestly i dunno.. they will pick dota or any games i think..lol..cheers
3. Do you think dan sim is a virgin?
roll on the floor laughing.. ahem, he is i think.. emphasize on i think lol
4. dan sim got turned into an animal! What animal is it?
mouse.. coz he look like mr brian n mr brian look like mouse..lol.i noe tis sound weird lol
5. Do you trust li yan?
as a fren, oh yes..
6. Would you love to read kenny chew's very personal diary?
tempting..bt no..i really respect him as teacher advisor n GG leader..
7. In a race between you, yong mun yee and aaron t, who would win?
lol..aaron t.. he is the tallest, with the longest legs among us., beside me n mun yee will talk n ignore the race lol..
8. Super fun fun adventure amusement park marathon with you, joram loo and abigail sim! How will it go?
lol.. emm, with abi keep taking pic of jo n poking jo? lol, she does dat on mun yee farewell..
9. Who's kenny chew dating?
no one.. alicia keys song =)..he is single n available.. candidate welcome.. lol
10. What's your fondest memory of jason lee?
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part 2
1. Does michelle goh have any pets?
yes.. her dog n etc.. he dog is her baby.. with the longest name i ever know.. n she call the dog precious
2. How did you meet aaron t?
lol.......on msn through mun yee.. n we didnt noe its the same person...till he say he is coming to kdu n den me n mun yee was wondering izzit the same person..so me n m y invite him to our chat..lol.. n was shock dat its the same person.. den finally met him in cf.. n the rest is history lol
3. Ever slept in the same room with joram loo?
...........................yes.. bt dun think other thing ok.. n no detail lol.. btw, he is just a bro dat i really respect..
4. What is one thing aaron t isn't exactly made for?
emm..........lol, singing i think.. no offend?
5. Have you dreamt of lik ee before?
plz.. no way..
6. dan sim just got vaporized in a freak accident. Now what?
emm....say gudbye for the last time in memorial? if he die adi.. n pray dat God take care of him in heaven? if he is in hospital, den c hw la..lol
7. What is or would be a good nickname for dan sim?
mousey lol
8. What's lik ee to you?
emm..ntg??? lol.. jk..ok la,lik ee is my bro in christ..
9. Describe mun yee in five words.
quiet (but can b talkative at times), listener, fragile, motherly, matured
10. What would you do if you hadn't met anna grace?
i won't have a sleeping partner lol, (i stay at her she for1 month), i won't know wat it means by helping a fren in needs which she show, alwiz offering ppl help.. n i wont get emo becoz of her.. oh i m guilty of treating her for granted at times.. i wont b enjoying the frenship with gal..i wont have all the beroom talk.. i wont feel the loss wen she leave soon to aussie.. okok, enough emo d.. i will save it later ..
http://mct421.deviantart.com/art/Question-Meme-Generator-69266481
courtesy of mun yee..=)
Saturday, April 19, 2008
aaron t birthday
the birthday boy.. aaron tam
it's aaron 20th birthday lol..finally reach the number 20 haha.. anyway, we went right for u to celebrate..oh n we cam pose alot lol..especially with roy camera.. with anna g obsess over abigail lol.. yea, we noe abigail is cute..lol.. and i think we left the place last..the whole place can hear our voice lol..n thx lik ee for organizing it.. haha, aaron present consist of a book, mark of a man and a hillsong cd..lol. cool rite? hope he enjoy it..lol.. and dat nite, we all suddenly decide to act cute and 'lala' lol.. we watch three kingdom after the dinner, just aaron, anna, lik ee and me.. well, check out the pics..
p.s the foods are mouth watering
just some words
hey, it is nt advice la..bt just something i think its true.. i remember its from a book.. dun remember wa title lol.. its said, if gals wan to noe the guys is truly gentleman, check out hw he treat his sis and mum..
Thursday, April 17, 2008
children
one time, me, michelle and harrison are talking about hw some new generation parents have no hitting policy unlike us, the older generation whom parents still believe in hitting policy.. and the ranting goes on like kids nowadays are so spoiled and etc.. the parents won't hit them and will just tell them nicely their mistake.. michelle claim that this way will nvr work.. for me, the kids nwadays are too well protected and i m sure in any other way, they want independant.. the hitting or not is up to parent.coz there are pro and cons in everything.. this policy may i add depend on the children emotional level too.. some may be too fragile to get hitting, as it may damage their self esteem, but some may need a little spanking. i also heard from mun yee in hillsongs kids, they don't hit kids, they believe in treating kids as a adult or may i say human that understand words, anna agreed.. haha, i guess for me, if u treat the child as young adult, then even if he is not, he will try to be, coz he wan to live up to the trust u given.. and i think, as violent as a kid may be, thr is alwiz an issue behind it.. well, patient is needed to tackle it.. best is, ask God to show u about it.. one thing i alwiz believe, no child is accident, it is a add on of the love of the parents whether it is out of mistake or unplanned.. it is still a gift to the parent like it or nt, a life created out of passionate moment between two (i noe tis doesn't include pregnancy out of rape or force sex).. even in womb, a child can sense rejection..
oh and hw michelle hate it wen children ran amok and scream in public places, lol.. n i begin to wonder, wat will i do if it is my kids, i mean ppl sure find it irritating and all, well, its too early to think la lol, bt i still can't help wonder like how i will train my child (will i use the child attach thingy like wat michelle say-tie ur child to u in public so dat they dun run amok bt still, come to think, they r kids, so yea, depending..beside, it is a gud way to lost weight as u run to chase them lol..), hw i will educate them (should i send them to sunday school or homeschool? to avoid wrong teaching, noo offence bt thr is caution of the sunday school teaching), will i be strict or not,will i practice hitting or no hitting policy, will their faith be influence because of me (how should i let them discover a relationship with God but yet nt make them believe it becoz it is a family faith, how to build their foundation in God that they really noe who is HIM nt based on what i say who HE is.. sometime, i even thinking for a term, wen they r old enough, let them stay somewhr without the family, and let them choose their faith freely, no forcing that every sun u must go as a family to church n etc. u have a choice as God gave everyone a choice, then only the faith is a strong foundation wen u choose urself) and etc etc, all tis questionis in my mind .. one thing for sure, i will definately ask God to shower them love.. a Love higher than my love and bcoz it is this Love i can love, nt forgetting that if i have children, it is HIS power that granted it. wat i learn being a daughter of God is (no one can be a mother without being a daughter) , HE will give HIS children the inheritance wen they are able to handle it.. and sometime HE even trust u more than HE should, and sometime u wasted it (i noe i did out of my childish way or bcoz i m a spiritual bastard, untill i noe my position in HIM), bt HE will wait for u to grow and matured before it is trusted to u again.. and every child have diff level of spiritual maturity thus diff level of inheritance, thrfore diff way of raising them bt it doesnt mean favouritism.. also, God dun value u for ur result, ur work, ur knowledge, ur success, HE as a father, cherish us because we r from HIM, becoz we want us for who we r.. like a mother who still love the son even wen he make mistake..yes, God the father is hurt everytime we make mistake and fall, but HE wan to restore us wen we repent..HIS love is able to forgive our iniquity.. That will be a lesson i wan to pass down..
well, the journey is getting more interesting.. i will walk on to c more... and sry for blabering.. too bad, writing is a way i communicate myself and present my thoughts.. i only long winded in writing.. i wont b able to speak so much ...lol.. my frens should b thxful..
oh and hw michelle hate it wen children ran amok and scream in public places, lol.. n i begin to wonder, wat will i do if it is my kids, i mean ppl sure find it irritating and all, well, its too early to think la lol, bt i still can't help wonder like how i will train my child (will i use the child attach thingy like wat michelle say-tie ur child to u in public so dat they dun run amok bt still, come to think, they r kids, so yea, depending..beside, it is a gud way to lost weight as u run to chase them lol..), hw i will educate them (should i send them to sunday school or homeschool? to avoid wrong teaching, noo offence bt thr is caution of the sunday school teaching), will i be strict or not,will i practice hitting or no hitting policy, will their faith be influence because of me (how should i let them discover a relationship with God but yet nt make them believe it becoz it is a family faith, how to build their foundation in God that they really noe who is HIM nt based on what i say who HE is.. sometime, i even thinking for a term, wen they r old enough, let them stay somewhr without the family, and let them choose their faith freely, no forcing that every sun u must go as a family to church n etc. u have a choice as God gave everyone a choice, then only the faith is a strong foundation wen u choose urself) and etc etc, all tis questionis in my mind .. one thing for sure, i will definately ask God to shower them love.. a Love higher than my love and bcoz it is this Love i can love, nt forgetting that if i have children, it is HIS power that granted it. wat i learn being a daughter of God is (no one can be a mother without being a daughter) , HE will give HIS children the inheritance wen they are able to handle it.. and sometime HE even trust u more than HE should, and sometime u wasted it (i noe i did out of my childish way or bcoz i m a spiritual bastard, untill i noe my position in HIM), bt HE will wait for u to grow and matured before it is trusted to u again.. and every child have diff level of spiritual maturity thus diff level of inheritance, thrfore diff way of raising them bt it doesnt mean favouritism.. also, God dun value u for ur result, ur work, ur knowledge, ur success, HE as a father, cherish us because we r from HIM, becoz we want us for who we r.. like a mother who still love the son even wen he make mistake..yes, God the father is hurt everytime we make mistake and fall, but HE wan to restore us wen we repent..HIS love is able to forgive our iniquity.. That will be a lesson i wan to pass down..
well, the journey is getting more interesting.. i will walk on to c more... and sry for blabering.. too bad, writing is a way i communicate myself and present my thoughts.. i only long winded in writing.. i wont b able to speak so much ...lol.. my frens should b thxful..
just my life
overwhelmed is the word i will use nw.. just fill with work and some other 'distraction' haha.. well, so yeah, i am in my blur and silence mood maybe slightly impatient, forgive me for it. bt I maybe very hyper on certain time and ppl.. ahaha... guess nt just me that is stress by work, michelle goh as well... she is so blur that she nearly bang by car thinking of her statistic assignment..probably she is counting the probability of her being bang that the car...lol.. oh and everything she see is all in statistic especially probability..well, degree is tough but life move on... and my ankle is better d..lol..
aaron birthday dinner is soon (happy 20th birthday bro!).. say, in few hours time ahaha.. will post the pics is got.. talking about pics, i uploaded alot of pics in the new created album called pics pics =) in facebook.. check it out.. and in kducf.blogspot, pics of recruitment drive is up..
i can't wait for my next week break.. break, here i am waiting for u.. come quick!!!
aaron birthday dinner is soon (happy 20th birthday bro!).. say, in few hours time ahaha.. will post the pics is got.. talking about pics, i uploaded alot of pics in the new created album called pics pics =) in facebook.. check it out.. and in kducf.blogspot, pics of recruitment drive is up..
i can't wait for my next week break.. break, here i am waiting for u.. come quick!!!
Sunday, April 13, 2008
ankle story
haha..sry to gross u guys!!! well, twisted my ankle at the stairs of my hse.. domestic violence haha.. wat a price to pay for rushing to use the computer (yes, i noe its lame), in order to complete my asignment..
enjoy the pic haha
Friday, April 11, 2008
post post
i noe long time didn't upload d.. been bz..with degree studies.. yea.. n i actually study!!!! believe it or nt haha.. below the evident of me studying!!!!! i noe rite? so rajin.. tis pic is curtesy of michelle goh.. haha.. she said it is sight of the year (me studying) and aaron t say joke of the century.. n pity me, i have to defend myslef..dat i do study beside exam time.. emm, do book beside text book count? =p
anyway, lotsa things happen.. just dunno hw to fit all here.. till time make me write la..lol.. emm, cheers
p.s i am bt who i am, i may act differently accordng to ppl n situation (call it fake or fitting it but most of the time, level of comfortablity or circumstances is the factors), i may be easily influence by ppl (especially michelle g, n gal, just dun take credit haha) but most importantly i am who God say who i am, no matter hw i may act (whether i act hw a christian suppose to act, bt of course HE will change me n rebuke me gently if i done wrong bt its all coz HE is teaching me) .. sry,it may sound emo, or hard to understand.. sry dat tis is whr i let out my thoughts, so just forgive me if wat i say u dun agree. at last, plz use ur heart to c a person, dun use other angle but ur hearts, its best with God heart n eyes to c a person. =) cz lotsa time, even myself, we make mistake by using our own eyes to c a person.. I have learned dat using God eyes to c a person grant u compassion n deeper understanding..
Sunday, March 23, 2008
my baptism
testimony time..
preparing..
yay, I am in the water...
up (alive)since last year the baptism question were posted to me.. and since I am new to the church and all, i consulted my elder, uncle hock seng along with aaron tam.. Uncle Hock Seng patiently lead us to understand more.. I am shown by God how this church function as a family, supporting each other after I went back home from consulting.. most importantly, when i ask God should I get baptize, HE didin't answer me yes or no, instead, HE said, HE can't make decision that i am suppose to make for HIM..that time, I know I am not ready yet..and i remembered the time is Christmas time..
and time flies, and it's flying to easter (alot have happened in between,and God is faithful).. again mr kenny posted me this baptism question... then, one fine day, I am very lazy to go cf prayer meet, but thr is this prompting that i am to attend it. God presence is thr as usual whr we seek HIM corporately, and I must say its my desire to pray out of HIS heart.. then again, when mr ken, drove me to one u for my shuttle van,he ask me for my baptism confirmation.. after I catch my shuttle van, I am reminded that the decision can only be made by myself, and looking back, I know how much love God have showered to me..then, this scene came to me, a man have long prepared to propose a gurl..he is ready with ring, flowers, make the restaurant reservation, but he have to woo and court the gurl first before he can do the proposal.. most importantly, the gurl have to either say yes or no to his proposal.. now i understand y God bring me to this scene, to show that baptism is a marriage and it means commitment for a marriage..HE adi have the proposal long ago for me, but HE is patiently waiting for me to say yes to HIM..to say yes to declare HE is my Bridegroom and to belong to my church family.. by then, my heart is clear of what to do, I say yes..and the joy came..
after my decision, baptism class started and then explanation by elder, Uncle Chris (called interview..lol, but it's quite informal and uncle chris joke somemore)
and on the big day, the easter day (can't sleep the night before, too excited hahah).. i noe God is with me all the way, especially in the freezing water,lol..yeap, I do I do.. God glory is shown on that day..HIS victory is bursting with joy.. we celebrate! i just can't seem to thx God enough to bring me to this church whr the elders is all sensitive to HIS spirit.. God have use this church to bring me breakthrough.. even on that day, after our guest speaker finish, God wan to have more victory, HE pour down HIS healing, deliverance and annointing.. ppl just cry, kneel, Words of live is given, apostle and prophetic annointing were given.. amazing.. I just stand thr and let my tears flow as God break me from generation curse..another breakthrough..
from sue en's blog
http://su-en13.blogspot.com/2008/02/woman.html
read this post from my church mate blog, she is talking about this japanese series, 1 litre of tears.. and its really nice.. especially the part of the movie, whr the mum said, above all, I am a mother.. for me, it means no matter wat, she will be fullfiling her duty as a mother.. for me, it just like God's faithfulness.. hw beautiful.. hw strong is a mother love..hw much greater is God faithfulness for us..
i just want to add to the crying part, yes, go ahead and cry, it does not ake u seem weak or nt in control, it means u have the courage to release it through tears and it is beautiful to be vulnerable to God.. trust me, all the tears is precious to God..beside, breakthrough come with tears.. after u cry, i m sure u noe u r lighther.. after crying, u will be able to stand again.. plz don't give up by bottled up ur emotion.. and oh yes, i do need alot of crying to b who I am today, and more to come, but I am nt worried, because like child birth, the pain of crying is just temporarily and when u see the 'child' (the victory) after u 'push' (release), u will remember the joy..
so even for guys, have a good cry when u need it.. find a place whr u can have all the space and piracy u need to have the 'child'.. And most importanly, be honest, if u are angry, make aware of the feeling, tell God and HE won't mind ur language, HE is big enough for ur bashing.. seriously, this is important, because, in order to solve problem, u need to be honest, yes, u need to honor and praise God, but when u dun feel that way, tell HIM frankly no matter how disrespecting u may sound..
p.s read her post and enjoy..
read this post from my church mate blog, she is talking about this japanese series, 1 litre of tears.. and its really nice.. especially the part of the movie, whr the mum said, above all, I am a mother.. for me, it means no matter wat, she will be fullfiling her duty as a mother.. for me, it just like God's faithfulness.. hw beautiful.. hw strong is a mother love..hw much greater is God faithfulness for us..
i just want to add to the crying part, yes, go ahead and cry, it does not ake u seem weak or nt in control, it means u have the courage to release it through tears and it is beautiful to be vulnerable to God.. trust me, all the tears is precious to God..beside, breakthrough come with tears.. after u cry, i m sure u noe u r lighther.. after crying, u will be able to stand again.. plz don't give up by bottled up ur emotion.. and oh yes, i do need alot of crying to b who I am today, and more to come, but I am nt worried, because like child birth, the pain of crying is just temporarily and when u see the 'child' (the victory) after u 'push' (release), u will remember the joy..
so even for guys, have a good cry when u need it.. find a place whr u can have all the space and piracy u need to have the 'child'.. And most importanly, be honest, if u are angry, make aware of the feeling, tell God and HE won't mind ur language, HE is big enough for ur bashing.. seriously, this is important, because, in order to solve problem, u need to be honest, yes, u need to honor and praise God, but when u dun feel that way, tell HIM frankly no matter how disrespecting u may sound..
p.s read her post and enjoy..
cf outing
ok, on thurs (public hols), cf organize a outing to 'park'..me and michelle goh didn't know it was a forest park, so we wore wedges..swt..i heard its just picnic.. anway, i should have guess and wear shoe instead of wedges..sigh..so, i end up finishing a short jungle tracking with wedges.. hahahaha.......and didn't tripped.. great achievement alrite.. miss angeline, mr kenny, kevin and yoke kheng were so impressed..lol.. say i perseverance and etc..lol.. it was fun and i luv the fresh air of forest.. cool plants and all, can't afford to miss it.. will post pics soon..lol..oh, btw, michelle chicken out..lol..she hide to paul condo..which is walkng distance to the park..
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
just another post..
well.. ntg to do..waiting for class to start..and with michelle goh laptop.. what do i do beside on9 and blogging lol.. anyway, just to kill time...
suprisingly i still have the mood to blog..lol.. veri veri tired..somehw it's my fault, sleep late and well, next day, u will be like , ok i m a zombie (a tired zombie means silence, mean n etc..) okla, i won't be mean la..just abit negative in my inner being, but dun worry i do have self control... so yeah, tomolo is cf outing and den easter practice.. so today must go home and rest..lol, going to abandon the 2 gals dat stay over my hse and sleep..wahahah..evil me... at nite somemore got baptism class.. really must rest!! oh ya, assignment pilling in too..
and i will stop here.. half way blogging, jason reminded me to 'pick up' youth from calvary church to evangelise..
suprisingly i still have the mood to blog..lol.. veri veri tired..somehw it's my fault, sleep late and well, next day, u will be like , ok i m a zombie (a tired zombie means silence, mean n etc..) okla, i won't be mean la..just abit negative in my inner being, but dun worry i do have self control... so yeah, tomolo is cf outing and den easter practice.. so today must go home and rest..lol, going to abandon the 2 gals dat stay over my hse and sleep..wahahah..evil me... at nite somemore got baptism class.. really must rest!! oh ya, assignment pilling in too..
and i will stop here.. half way blogging, jason reminded me to 'pick up' youth from calvary church to evangelise..
Sunday, March 16, 2008
mr kenny chew phye ken birthday
groupie (after mr ken left..emm..sad rite? too bad he gotto rush off to babysit his nephew)
spagetti sos-- ok, i can't say i made it myself..or not michelle goh going to kill me..fine, she help me alot lol..
alright, this one, i definately made it myself..i am proud of my mocktail
the birthday mr kenny! looks who at the back..lol.abigail
miss angeline, aaron tam, clement, and jason..
drinking festival?
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