realization

i realized something thesedays:
i noe i m imperfect n a failure, full of mistake, but once i m child of God, i have to be someone else, because becoming Christian is to die n live again. wen u die, ur new self rise, u r a new being d, a whole new person.. so, nw i have to declare to the cycle of mistake n failure dat it no longer have a bondage over me.. God the ever perfect Father created me with His hand, hw could i be imperfect if i am created in HIS image n likeness? God want to restore me to be the perfect being HE created me..well, even then, i m nt saying dat once i m child of God n declare tis, i can b perfect instancely.. i m simply a fallen human, imperfect, with failures n hurts, slowly letting the Potter hands restoring me to what it is intended to be, the holy spirit control n change me day by day... I m imperfect but HIS perfect LOVE catch me with my flaws. time after time, yes i cry after failures n failures n simply conclude dat i m a failure..but i learned from it n the experience helps me to rely on God.. most of time, the failure is a cycle of past hurts which only God can restore as I release to HIM.

i noe ppl dat is without mistake n can't stand mistake..think about it, it is a mistake wen adam n eve sins.. dats y we strive to make it up by achieving tis n dat n live flawlessly... those mistakes also help me to understand ppl with mistake n hw to fix it or rather hw to deal with the consequences.wat u have go through will grant u the understanding n compassion over ppl who fails in the past..u also learn from past experience n not to repeat it.. its all part of growing up..even albert einstein said, all those failures is nt really failures, he just discover what can't be used for his light.

in the end, yes, i apologise for doing so many mistake..especially over all the trouble cause....