beauty part 2 haha..

been thinking of it lately, ever since i blog, i have been thinking about beauty so much lately..

Beauty is to accept the imperfection within us and LOVING IT.. I have to admit this is tough one.. i for once is with alot of imperfection, or so i think.. being bombarded with comments like, oh, u look like malay, u so dark.. and mum wanting me to put powder and cutting my foods intake make me obsess about my complexion and weight, nt mentioning my height.. i am below 160.. thrfore i hated sun, and try hard to exercise and cutting foods.. i know some gals go the extreme miles of nt eating at all.. recently my paranoid situation over my skin started when i have to walk alot under the sun and for the sports carnival in kota damansara just finished last sat have reached it maximum.. and u dun wan to noe the exact details.. lol.. so this make me think, izzit worth it to be worried and do every single thing to ensure my 'beauty'..

The thing is, y izzit so important to gals to be beautiful.. and what is the true defination of beauty, since we are alwiz bombared with beauty by media.. since my paranoid situation, i have know and more aware of hw much I (perhaps other gals) are shaped by the perception of media.. not to forget we have the tendency to compete out of jealousy... its our nature desire to be beautiful, thrfore we compete and jealous with other gals, when u desire something, envy will come to ppl who think they dun have it..

so, bck to the question, y izzit so important to be beautiful? y nt cute or just simple? of course none wanna be ugly.. bt the question remain.. y we spend tons and tons of time to be beautiful or secretly wishing we are beautiful? or some just go and have plastic surgery like in nip and tuck.. the sad part is the gals did not gain true self confident even after plastic surgery.. and even models, they have problem with beauty as much as they denied it. i mean, whats with the exessive make up and regular meeting with plastic surgery (in janice modelling company).. and yet we believe dat is the standard of beautiful or hot or gorgeous.. trust me, even beautiful gals are insecure.. they still think, they can be more beautiful.. whreas in some situation, a beautiful lady is a bridge for her to connect with ppl, as ppl will naturally be astounded by her beauty and want to noe her, bt her personality is shy, so ppl bck out, and turn to a simple gal but with bubbling character..

at the end, my question remains, but the word someone once told me keep echoing to me, to be beautiful, u must realize u r beautiful deep down.. and while my paranoid come to a highest point, the source of Beauty came.. telling me dat i need nt worry bout my flesh, it will be alrite, and HE is the beauty, the source of our desire to be beautiful (beauty not in flesh but every aspect of us)

swing

i personally luv to swing.. i can't explain hw dear it is to me.. i have taken a love on swing since small.. the feeling to be push or pushing urself and den when the swing go high, ur heart soar with it.. with a certain fear when the swing fly high on sky, i learn the fact dat i luv adventure/freedom but thr tis fear to limit me from unleashing too far ahead.. encounters to be push and to trust the person who push me my safety is another lesson.. like the book girl on the

swing.. its a beautiful encounter with God, being a girl and on swing with God..

thr is this experience i wan to share, i call it "the swing encounter".. thr are a few time, where my Father will bring me in time of need to swing, and as he sit with me side by side, sometime pushing me.. normally bringing company, luv and comfort to me.. its a Father and daugther time.. dat y dat day, even as me and michelle g went to park nearby my hse, and thr is a swing, veri big and high, wen i swing on it, remind me of heaven.. i can hear my heartbeat and even in the height, something in me rested.. the sky is dark, bt something is shinning-it feels like heaven.. i cry, laugh and soar on the swing.. nt fearing to fall and the height.. i luv swing!

cosmetics story

cosmetics bring along the story and whole history of ladies desiring to enhance their beauty of to tranform to be beautiful.. personally, i have encounter some issue over this story.. in search of the beauty within me, i encountered words like, u better put some foundation, because my collegue say u look like malay and dark, very words from my mum.. and then, you don't know how to groom yourself, don't know how to make up and dress up, by my boss of event planning, whom i work for internship.. so after my boss commented, i run to the nearest guardian and bought cosmetics.. along with my mum cosmetic and some my collection but nvr used, i embarked on a journey of applying foundation a.k.a make ups. bt i came to realize cosmetic is not a problem to help u to b presentable or enhance what u have but nt to make u beautiful.. Beauty is when ur face shine naturally after an encounter with God, none can resist dat.. beauty is wen u r able to breath freely in life-to be true to yourself and others.. beauty is wen u r assured of ur identity, beauty is wen u r loved or in love, beauty is when u have joy in life (notice hw beautiful it is when u smile or laugh?), beauty is rest and grace, beauty is the picture of triumph after trials..beauty is when u love urself with God eyes, being comfortable in what God created u to be..beauty is when something in u is birthing with anticipation, thr is life within u- do u realize how divine a pregnant lady who is overjoy while waiting for the baby arrival.. beauty is awakening of heart- where all the beautiful poems comes in.. beauty is soothing cream to the soul,light to the heart and eternal(everlasting, one that u will keep looking at, asking for more and nvr be bored) which captured your heart (beauty is capturing)- once u c true beauty, ur heart will forever remember it and be transformed by it. beauty is pure innocent and simplicity- i remember my mum used to share hw my dad will chase those small little innocent girls, and treat them like princess.. beauty is powerful- y so?coz in bible, esther use her beauty to help save his ppl- the power to fight and conquer.Even in many other example, hw many women use their beauty for gud and evil purpose... Beauty is definately an expression of heart, the depth of soul- even in tv series for eg, no matter how pretty is the evil character, u will not find her beautiful (even pretty) after some time, bt for the heroin, eventough she may be simple at first, bt u will find her beautiful if the show potray her with her inner strength (ability to love, forgive, patience, gud hearted, and etc)


hw much we desire beauty but it is so not appearance... if appearance its called pretty or gorgeous or hot. bt beauty is diff.. and thr is ntg wrong to use cosmetic, dun get me wrong.. and its a gift for girls who dun need to use cosmetics.. wat a liberation.. dun need to rush in the morning to apply.. dun need to spend tons n tons of moeny of cosmetics.. beauty care products are different..

nw, let me give a true eg of beauty after encounter from God, i was baptised in this year easter.. i know God glory is with me, and after baptised, 2 guys came and tell me i look veri beautiful and radiant.. and i knew God shine through me.. =)

tis will remind u about moses.. when he lead the israel people as God appoint him to.. one day, as he was instructed to seek God alone on a mountain top, wen he came down, his face were shinning as a result of encounter with God, till moses have to use veil when he face the people..nw dat is beauty inside out, don't u think so?

a new season

ok, humans..sry sry that i didn't update for long d.. *blush* .. so after much pressure from michelle g & mun yee.lol.. i am hereby blogging, thus breaking free from hiatus.. what a start for this new post =) ..

i have alot alot to say, but dunno whr to start..

first thing first, my class have started for a week.. means i have finished the endless and repeatitive work of calling ppl as telemarketing..

second.. i cannot say how excited i am to be a part of kdu campus church.. this ministry have been veri powerful.. and nw we have prayer meet every thurs, with worship, sharing about the interecessor book by dutch sheet.. after dat, we will pray for what is in the team heart.. the team consists of mr kenny, the leader, jia leng, aaron tam, roy, karen, me.. yoke kheng and uncle chris join us too..

also, nw me and yoke kheng are having bible study with karen ng at 7pm.. assurance salvation have been gud.. and three of us are comfortable, eating while doing bible study hahah..

one thing, God have really been bringing me to another season, and i am walking it with excitement .. so sry if i am suddenly bursting out with words and all..only certain ppl understand the reason lol.. so bear with me.. esp mun yee lol.. u noe since i told u lol.. its really a encouragement for me to share with u our experience and all.. and our journey ..its beautiful what our Father have in store for us.. and its my privillege and joy to be go through it with u.. sigh, since u & anna left, me really deprived of girls hahah.. can't wait to c u soon.. cute gal! pray dat i will be connected with gals dat i have nw..n i will do vice versa too..

ps. passion world tour is just wow and powerful~!! and i am glad louie giglo shared Ashley stories.. and michelle goh, i noe u really like it..lol.. or feel.. and u went and download chris tomlin songs.. and u were questioning me about amazing grace..

oh ya, my church is launching the alpha course too .. can't wait..

so, like what michelle put it- grace is getting what we don't deserve...

stay blessed ppl!